It is His kindness that leads us to repentance.
It is His gentleness that makes us great.
His love draws us into a throne room we don’t belong in
And His mercy makes all things new.
My heart has been deeply longing for heaven the past couple of days. The petty things of this world – to-do lists, chores around the house, scheduling meetings (We won’t have to do that in heaven because we’ll have all the time in the world!!!) and problem solving – have been more of an annoyance than privilege.
I just want to see Him. I want to see His eyes shining brightly with justice and mercy. I want to see the lines in His face because He’s been smiling at His people for generations upon generations. I want to touch His hand – the hands that have holes in them because of the burden He bore for me and the world on the cross. I want to sit with Him for hours and hours (and then more hours) without an agenda, questions, worries, stress, frustrations, fear…I could keep going for a long time. I want to be fully with Him.
The words of Paul in Philippians 1 feel so real to me today:
23 I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better. 24 But to remain in the flesh is more necessary on your account. 25 Convinced of this, I know that I will remain and continue with you all, for your progress and joy in the faith, 26 so that in me you may have ample cause to glory in Christ Jesus, because of my coming to you again. (ESV)
And so I stay. Not because I think I alone am great but because I am convinced that in my staying the glory of God will be made more fully known throughout the earth…and then He’ll come back faster!