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βΊ Back to School on Crutches | A Little EverFlow Life Update
Hello my spicy and beautiful pumpkins! π€ How are you all? “Long time” no seen.
I am truly exhausted β both mentally and physically!
Jumping on crutches is a pure workout and I am NOT built for workouts. Give me cookies and milk and I will be a happy person. Lol.
Anyway…
The reason why I have been absent is because I have been mentally preparing and struggling with school β yes, I know. Shit happens and I hate it there, but I do it for my son. Not only for him to have after-school care, but also to show him that it’s okay if you don’t graduate high school. You can always get an education later in life.
Monday: First day. Not prepared. Read here; [ link to Monday’s post ]
Tuesday: Went to school for like 1.5 hours. I couldn’t stay for a whole day. I was almost falling asleep in class, couldn’t focus and had a migraine on top of that. I hadn’t slept that night because of massive stomach pain that kept waking me up every 30 minutes. It was awful, and it kept going nonstop the whole Wednesday as well.
Friday [today]: Half day β woho! Love that!
Today we had a test β yes, a test already… first week β and I passed it. Woop!
We also had a “roleplay” where the teacher divided us students into two groups β four in each. We had to do a roleplay where two of the students were preschool kids and two had to be the teachers. One mean teacher and one “good” teacher.
Guess which one I was?
……….. *pause for guessing* ………..
If you guessed the mean one, you are correct!
So me “yelling” and being mean to one of the children β I went all out. I was acting like this horrible, mean teacher.
Wow! Almost so good that I deserve an Oscar!
That’s how good I was. π
After school,
I came home, supposed to do homework, but honestly β all my energy went into going to school and jumping around on crutches. My hands and arms are actually hurting from it, to be honest. It is brutal! I don’t understand how people can do it day in and day out to be honest! You guys are strong!
At least I’m going, which is a miracle for me.
Sure, I get a lot of stares, but I’m rocking those screaming, insanely blue crutches.
They are so ugly! It’s ridiculous.
Tomorrow I will study. I had to do paperwork for the insurance company, Lufthansa and their bullshit and yeah…
Exhausted Miima for sure!
So here is a quick post, quick check-in.
Hi! Here I am! Exhausted but still alive β barely β and ready to post again. Getting back to my routines again!
Thank you so, so much for checking in on EverFlow and for being patient with me. I really appreciate you! SO MUCH! π€
Much love to you, my pumpkins! π€ -
βΊ How I Stepped Out of My Comfort Zone Despite Body Insecurities
Stepping out of my comfort zone while struggling with body insecurities felt terrifying, but after 30+ hours awake, six bus rides, and a full day of parenting, I still challenged myself to do something scary.
Even with zero sleep, I still did something my son loves β riding the bus.
We went into town to buy my Propud for smoothies, berries, and other essentials, but also to help E practice his social skills.
Two stores, heavy backpacks, and significantly poorer laterβ¦
We came home with a toy for E, candy, Pepsi Max (yup, of course), six protein shakes for my smoothies, frozen mangoes and raspberries, a bag of chips, ice cream, bananas, nicotine pouches, on-the-go yogurt, an energy drink, and a can of Pepsi Max.
Let me countβ¦
1β¦ 2β¦ 3β¦ 4β¦ 5β¦ 6.
Six bus rides in just two hours.
Thatβs honestly insane.
At the same time, I challenged myself by stepping way out of my comfort zone β which felt terrifying.
How?
I tied up my shirt so it became a cropped top, meaning I showed a bit of my stomach (see pictures), and I also went out wearing lace leggings.
I never show my stomach, so that alone was huge for me.
Funny enough, the leggings were actually too big for me, which is a pretty massive result of my ongoing weight loss journey β WOHO!
That gives me even more motivation to keep going and reach my goal.
At least E was happy, and I didnβt crash, so Iβll call that a win ππΌ
I can honestly say Iβm pretty impressed that even after 30+ hours with zero sleepβ¦ I was still up and walking. -
βΊ 32 Hours Awake: Sleep Deprivation, Parenting & Pure Survival Mode
32+ hours awake, one overenergized child, zero brain cells, and caffeine as a personality trait. Welcome to survival mode. ππ€π
Guess what? I still havenβt gotten any sleep.
Itβs currently 5 PM, and I can honestly say: I A M D E A D.
Not literally, but you get what I mean.
My son is still all over the place, full of energy, and Iβm honestly jealous. If I had even one percent of his energy, Iβd be happy.
Headache β
Sound sensitive β
Light sensitive β
I was hoping Iβd at least get a nap during the day, but with my luckβ¦ I doubt it.
I need to keep E awake for the rest of the day, otherwise Iβll probably have another night like this, and my body and mental health honestly canβt handle that.
So here we go π΅βπ« A few more hours to survive.
Iβm praying he sleeps tonight because I have a super important meeting tomorrow that I absolutely need to attend.
Iβve officially been awake for 32 hours and 30 minutesβ¦ and I definitely feel it.How’s your day?
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βΊ Ready for an Adventure
Hello my beautiful flowers! I hope you all are doing good! How are you?
ββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββββA bus ride, a crowded grocery store and one very determined little adventurer.
I just sat down after today’s adventure with E. As you know, he has autism – level 3 – and is non-verbal. Due to him not having the after-school care thingy for the rest of the summer, I have to come up with a million ideas of what to do with him – like I normally do, but living here, it’s not that fun. At least he enjoys it.
Today’s adventure; bus, grocery store, bus and home.
He has been nagging about the trip we went on to another city – bus, train, shopping, train, bus – and I have always felt really bad for saying “not today, maybe tomorrow” etc.
Today he repeatedly said “bus, shopping – bus” and started to get ready > pants, shirt, underwear (he took care of his hygiene himself), brushed his teeth and hair, put on his shoes and jacket.
“Ready!” all of a sudden I heard while I was out on the balcony.
I laughed when I saw him ready for an adventure, so I took him on a bus ride (he is obsessed with buses) and the joy when we finally sat down on the bus. Oh my.
When I saw the parking lot at the grocery store, my heart started to beat super fast and I felt that I didn’t want to do this. The parking lot was MAXED with cars! It was insane!
But I had promised E, so I ignored my feelings and we got off. I told E to hold my hand and whatever he did – do not let my hand go.
Luckily, if a child gets lost in Sweden, people usually help them find their parent or notify store staff. So while I was worried about the crowds and the noise, I wasn’t worried about E getting abducted or anything like that.
While inside, oh my God. I wanted to turn around instantly. My mind was racing:
“How will this go? How will E act?” (He gets tantrums when there are a lot of people and noises.) “Where are the hearing protections?” etc.
Toys; as a reward (before actually entering the food sections of the store), I got him a second train. I knew that would help him stay a little calmer because he could focus on that one.
Food sections; thank God I have taught E to hold the cart in front of me and me behind him. So it’s me – E – cart.
Because oh my Lord how insane people are when holidays are happening in Sweden. This time; Midsummer.
We literally had to do a maze between people to grab our stuff and when we were outside after the shopping, I let out the biggest sigh of relief. We were done.
We did it!
Remind me to never go to grocery stores during holidays or a few days before. It was worse than Christmas time and people in Sweden are insane when it comes to Christmas and Easter. -
βΊ A not-so-quiet and calm morning
We thought it would be a slow morning, but we were very wrong.
Tornado boy
We woke up to E moving around in bed like a tornado. He usually comes to sleep with us during the night to feel safe, so this is nothing unusual.
I was already wide awake at that point. Mentally I wanted more sleep, but my body had clearly decided otherwise.
Then suddenly M said,
βHeβs going to throw up.β
I barely had time to react before I instinctively put my hands under his mouth β and yes, correctly.
I quickly lifted him out of bed while using my hands as a temporary bucket. M looked completely panicked for a second, probably because itβs very rare that E throws up, so I just yelled:
βGET A BUCKET!β
Thank God for my unusually big hands. Honestly, I donβt even want to think about where everything would have ended up otherwise.
Weβre currently on the sofa watching YouTube and trying to have a calmer rest of the day.
My poor little man. I hope that E and the day gets better β€οΈ