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› 10 Days Later: Still Fighting the Pain After Breaking My Foot
Hey guys!
So sorry that I haven’t been updating EverFlow like I normally do (texts etc. Like this post), but hopefully that will change soon. No… it will change soon! I also apologize for the lack of communication from my side. I see all your comments and love 🖤 I will answer them as soon as I can! I also want to apologize for not sharing photos yet from my trip but they will come. Be prepared!
How are you guys? Happy new month! (Yeah, I know… we’re already three days into it. 😂)I hope you’re all doing fantastic. Thriving, growing and, most importantly, being happy!
My main focus lately has actually been my foot and my knee. It hurts so much, but because I’m stubborn I’ve already started walking on my foot again. Do I suffer because of it? Absolutely. Am I supposed to be resting with my foot up? Yep. But is there really time for that? Not really. Housework, mom life… life doesn’t exactly hit the pause button.
Today I have actually challenged myself. Not a small challenge… a big, exhausting one.
Normally it takes me about five minutes to walk to the store and another five minutes back. Today? Twenty minutes each way. Forty minutes in total… and let me tell you, I do not need a gym membership while I’m on these crutches. 😂 That is one thing for sure!
The sweat was definitely sweating, I can assure you. Imagine me jumping around on crutches while E walks at the speed of a cheetah. It was basically Snail vs. Cheetah.
It’s been 10 days now and my foot still hurts. Like I said above… and no, I still haven’t been given any painkillers, no matter how many times I’ve asked.
So to try and ease the pain a little, I bought a pair of compression socks because the area around my toes is getting absolutely destroyed from walking the way I do with the boot.
It actually helped a little… but it also squeezed parts of my foot I didn’t even know existed. 😂 So, of course… more pain. Those socks are TIGHT. Like… “is my blood circulation still working?” tight. I wore one for two days, though. I even fell asleep with it on the first night.
Yep… that’s pretty much my life right now.
I’m just hoping, wishing and praying these next few weeks fly by, because I’m honestly getting pretty tired of being in pain. -
› How ADHD Affects the Way I Communicate and Hold Conversations
Having conversations with ADHD can feel chaotic, fast, and unpredictable. My brain can jump between topics within seconds—unless the conversation goes deep, where hyperfocus often takes over instead.
Honestly, anything — except politics, racism, war, etc.
It actually depends on how the conversation flows between me and the other person. If it were only about me talking about something, I probably wouldn’t be able to decide what to talk about once my ADHD brain kicks in, because I can go from one subject to another within 0.2 seconds.
So me keeping track of a conversation I started would be almost impossible — unless it’s a deep conversation. Then my ADHD behaves.
But random talks? Oh wow.
I can go from SparkleFart the unicorn to FartStripes to completely made-up things.
Haha, I’ll explain SparkleFart and FartStripes.
I used to play a game called Whiteout Survival, and there was a pack you could buy that included a unicorn used when marching to attack.
She sparkled when she marched, so that’s where “Sparkle” came from — but it also looked like she was farting sparkles, so that’s how I came up with SparkleFart.
FartStripe was the name I gave a yucca palm. Don’t ask me why. I honestly have no idea.
FartStripe is FartRanden in Swedish, so FartRanden translates to FartStripe.
That’s the story behind those two names.
So yeah, having a conversation with me would never be boring for you. -
› What I Wish I Knew During My Darkest Depression
Have you ever had the thought, “If I could go back in time, what would I tell my younger self?”
For me… honestly, this post will be 1000% raw and authentic. The truth will be told here.
⚠️ Warning: mentions ofsuicide and self-harm ⚠️
If I’m being honest, I wish I could go back to the time when I was at my deepest depression — when I harmed myself badly, wrote goodbye letters to my mum, and tried so many times to end my life.
I wish I could go back in time and tell my mum not to worry — that I wouldn’t do it. Back when I slept with kitchen knives (not the ones you eat with) under my pillow.
Depression made me awful to my mum. Me harming myself hurt her deeply. I was awful to my siblings too, who dropped everything the second they noticed I was gone. My brother drove back and forth looking for me. My siblings ran around calling my name, trying to find me, terrorized by the calls and the fear of not knowing where I was.
If I could turn back time and know what I know today, I would have stopped.
I would have told younger Emma (yes, that’s my name, but I go by Mii):
Don’t do it. It’s not worth it. You will have your own family one day. You need to stay strong so you can be there for them — and for mum when she gets older.
Or maybe just a few simple words:
It’s not worth it.
Sorry for such a deep conversation, but I wanted you to know a little bit of my background before sharing what I would have said to my younger self.What would you have told your younger self?
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› This or That — Random Edition 🖤
Fun post: This or that. Comment your answers 🖤
Blanket or weighted blanket – blankets. Panic if weighted blanket
Candle scent or perfume scent – Honestly? None. Trigger my migraine
Thunderstorm or soft rain – Thunderstorm!!!
Barefoot or fluffy socks – uhm.. Barefoot mostly but also fluffy socks when mood
Tea mug or giant tumbler – Mug
Fresh sheets or fresh shower – Hard choice! PASS!
Dim lighting or natural daylight – Inside? Natural
Couch or bed – Bed
Silence or background noise – Background noise
Incense or candles – Candles
Stay calm or panic then solve it – depends on situation. Mostly panic mode (ADHD kicks in)
ADHD chaos or functioning adult – ADHD but when it comes to my son; functioning adult
Hold on or let go – Trying to learn to let things go
Comfort zone or chaos zone – learning to leave Comfort zone so let’s go with chaos
Be understood or be mysterious – understoodPlease share your list 🥰 I’d love to read your answers 🖤
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› One Week Later… Recovery Isn’t Going as Planned
Happy Monday! 🖤
New week!
New possibilities!
New goals!
One week ago, I was on my way back from Niš, Serbia. It’s crazy how fast time flies!
I still haven’t gone through the photos from my camera, so I can edit them and show you all. The unexpected detour to the emergency room, along with the pain, has my full attention right now. Yep… I’m still dealing with the pain with no painkillers or anything.
I have a few people waiting for their photos, so I’m going to try to sort everything out either tonight or tomorrow.
I just wanted to pop in and wish you all a wonderful week! 🖤
I’ll be back on The EVERFLOW as soon as possible, but right now my main focus is simply trying not to break down because of the pain.
The difference is.. *chefs kiss*
Much love to you, my pumpkins. 🎃🖤