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› 80s/90s Vibes in a Very Expensive World
A few snapshots were taken and edited to make them look like they were shot with a disposable camera.
I tried editing these photos to make them look like I took them with a disposable camera/film camera. I’m in that era right now where I want pictures to have that 80s/90s vibe, you know? That vintage (wow, now I feel old!) vision, feeling, and look.
I still have a lot to work on, but hey, you have to start somewhere, right? I’m still looking for a good editing app for my phone where I can get edits exactly like that.
● Grocery shopping
● An event is happening where we live
● The stress from all the noise and E’s struggles with loud sounds
● SUPER EXPENSIVE!
Even though the Swedish government officially announced that taxes and food prices would go down starting April 1st to make everyday necessities cheaper… well… this bag that my son and I carried home from the store cost me $80. $80!! That is freaking insane!
● Bad habits stuff
● Pepsi Max
● A small piece of meat
● French fries
● Potato salad
● Two cakes for Sweden’s National Day celebration
● One can of corn
● A small tub of roasted onions
● Popcorn
That’s it. Those were the items. And keep in mind that they were on sale, meaning they were cheaper because of the occasion.
Back in the 90s, this probably would’ve cost around $25 or something, but $80!? It’s unbelievable how money-hungry the government is. It’s disgusting. And these aren’t even proper everyday necessities (well, maybe not what I bought specifically, but you know what I mean).
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The event happening here is something they do every year. Face painting, candy fishing, politics, running marathons, etc. There’s a lot going on, and it’s SO LOUD. That’s why grocery shopping (aka “getting robbed” shopping!) was such a challenge for me—well, mostly for E—but we made it through. Thank God.
Now we’re home, about to do laundry and relax. Maybe have a little spa time. Put rice water in my hair and do some hair masks. Hm, lovely, but we’ll see how much energy I have left after walking up and down 30 steps every single time. Lol.
Yes, I’m complaining right now, and no, I am not sugarcoating that I have a bad habit. -
› Chaos, Stress & Snapshots
My Friday in snapshots.
● Chaos ● Stress ● Meetings ●
Enjoy a few pictures from today. I’m currently in bed trying to get some sleep. The reason for the short post is that I have a massive migraine.Sorry.
I also made rice water that I had to cool off outside so I can use it tomorrow.
A chair that will get a new life. One of my summer projects.
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› Soul mates.
Do you believe in soulmates? Why or why not?
No. I believed that before. Not now.
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› A few glimpses of my Thursday.
A day filled with thoughts, fears, flowers, camera gear, and small moments in between.
A regular day with a lot of thinking. I attended a workshop for parents of autistic children. We learned tips and ideas on how to handle depression and how to notice the signs before it is too late.
It scared me. It made me face the reality that my son may—hopefully not—develop depression and suicidal thoughts in the future. Apparently, it is extremely common among children with autism, which means he is at high risk.
So this course was a must for me. I think it was more directed toward parents of teenagers, but it was still good for me to learn about the warning signs and what to look out for in the future.
I have personally been through all of this myself, and I am currently struggling with depression—though no suicidal thoughts anymore. I had them when I was younger, and I think that is what scared me the most. I do not want him to follow in my footsteps, so I am taking every chance I can to learn more about autism, mental health, and everything in between.
So today, when I picked up E from after-school care—or whatever to call it — I hugged him tightly and almost broke down crying.
Why?
Because I am scared.
I am terrified of the future. Terrified that E will follow in my footsteps. And honestly, I now understand what my mom went through with me. I owe her my whole heart for all the protection, love, and support she gave me.
Enough sadness for now — even though I believe it is important to talk openly about these things. I am not ashamed of it. But this internet home for everyone is not going to be associated with depression only.●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
I also picked up a package today with things I ordered for my camera gear and for the Bulgaria trip — 38 days left! Woooh!
Camera lens covers, strings to attach them to the camera so I do not lose them, and two new bags. I am already using the blue one in the picture, and I also ordered a black sports bag that I will use as a cabin bag for the flight. Later, my son can use it for sleepovers. I will show that one later.
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› Witness in the future?
What’s something you’d love to see in the future, but know you probably won’t live to witness?
Honestly, i want to see elephants free. See them in their natural habitat.
I want to see ocras/killerwhale, dolphins and whales.
That would be wonderful to see and witness.