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› This or That — Random Edition 🖤
Incoming! Fun post! Feel free to answer in the comments 🖤
Pancakes or waffles – ugh! Hard one! I have no time nor energy to do waffles so I go with pancakes
Mac and cheese or lasagna – Never tried Mac ans cheese so I will go with lasagna
Spicy food or mild food – Spicy but not too spicy (don’t wanna end up at the ER)
Crunchy fries or soft fries – Crunchy!
Smooth peanut butter or crunchy peanut butter – never tried either of them
Cheesecake or brownies – Cheesecake
Milkshake or smoothie – Milkshake. If correctly done.
Homemade food or takeout – Depends on mood
Breakfast for dinner or dinner for breakfast – wait what?
Fresh bread or fresh pastries – Bread
Ketchup or mayo – Ketchup! Omg, people complain when I eat ketchup – I love ketchup!
Soup or salad – salad! Chicken salad
Lemon or lime – lemon
Pasta sauce or pesto – Pasta sauce
Coffee shop or bakery – coffee shopPlease share your list 🥰 I’d love to read your answers 🖤
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› I don’t want to be here
Here we go. Quick post. Been preparing myself mentally for this. I hate it here.
I tried wavy hair today. I don’t know if I like it or not. I am so happy that I have a hair cream that makes my hair feel and look thicker! Remind me please to buy more of that cream! My hair is so think and my hair breaks off so easy. I hate it.
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Back to school – even after what happened but I have to do it for my son. I hate it to be honest. For my son? Yes, i do this so he get after-school care to be with children and to get help with he’s development.
But going here, for me – my feeling, thought and opinions – shows that I accept and is ok of what they did – which i don’t! I am still super mad but here i am. Forcing myself, struggling to focus and to listen. My mind went in “attack” mode – not hurting them but more in fighting/defense myself mode. Just Because of that. I can’t focus. Every time the teacher talk – I honestly get irritated. Hopefully it will go away soon. I hope. For my son and for my future of my career – Hopefully.
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Yes, I’m still on crutches even though I am stubborn to avoid using them and forcing myself to go as “normal” as possible.
I had to ask for elevator key at school. I have my classes on the third floor – 60 steps. To many steps! So signing papers, showing my ID, showing school card etc. Just to get the damn key.
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It’s currently lunch and I’m sitting here, listening to the songs I’ve written. Good lyrics 🤘🏼 Ego and brag? Ofcourse.
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Jumping all over in this post but here I am! E is going to he’s friend tonight so I will have time to study and edit some photos! Woho! I finally found the harddrive where I have all the photos from the trips!
Wish me luck. Five more hours of this hell 😩 😵💫
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› Would You Rather — Chaos Edition
Copy the list and comment your answers in the comment sections. Let’s have fun!
Lose your phone for a week or lose internet for a week?
Internet. I can still take photos, edit etc on my phone. Plus listen to music etc.
Always whisper or always shout?
LOL I apparently shout when I talk so I guess shout.
Fight one horse-sized duck or 100 duck-sized horses?
OUFF! One horse-sized duck! TO THE NARNIA WE RIDE!
Have unlimited money but never travel or travel anywhere but always be broke?
Honestly, always be broke.
Only eat sweet food or only salty food?
Pffh sweet. I hate salty food.
Always be 10 minutes late or 20 minutes early?
Boy! I’m trying to train my ass to be at least 15 minutes early instead of always being late to things.
Never use social media again or never watch YouTube again?
Social media. I don’t use it often though.
Have a rewind button or a pause button for life?
Rewind = So I could take back the last thing I told my dad before he passed and get the last hug.
Rewind = to hear mom’s voice again and record her wise words I could listen to whenever I need her.
Pause = my son is growing up so fast.
Be able to fly or become invisible?
Fly! Imagine flying and shit on people I dislike like a damn seagull. Also it would be AWESOME just to fly anywhere I want — Greece? See you in a couple of hours. Dubai? See you in a few days.
Live without music or without movies?
Movies. I can’t handle movies. They are too long unless it’s my favorite movie — Phat Girlz
Only wear one color forever or one outfit forever?
Excuse me? I only wear black and same style of outfit every day so.
Sleep only 4 hours but feel rested or sleep 12 hours every night?
Yall get 4 hours of sleep? Lucky.
Read minds or predict the future?
Neither.
Always have cold hands or cold feet?
I always have cold feet due to bad circulation in my feet thanks to diabetes.
Be stuck in summer forever or winter forever?
HELL NO FOR WINTER! Give me summer — better yet, give me autumn and Halloween!
Unlimited Pepsi Max or unlimited ice cream?
DUUUUDE!!! Why are you trying to kill me? Now this is a hard one but I will go for my Pepsi Max.
Goth room or minimalist white room?
Really? Are you sure about this question?
Camera battery at 100% forever or unlimited storage?
Unlimited storage.
Never overthink again or never get migraines again?
Never.. uhm.. UGH I CAN’T CHOOSE——————————————————————————
Would You Rather
Lose your phone for a week or lose internet for a week?
Always whisper or always shout?
Fight one horse-sized duck or 100 duck-sized horses?
Have unlimited money but never travel or travel anywhere but always be broke?
Only eat sweet food or only salty food?
Always be 10 minutes late or 20 minutes early?
Never use social media again or never watch YouTube again?
Have a rewind button or a pause button for life?
Be able to fly or become invisible?
Live without music or without movies?
Only wear one color forever or one outfit forever?
Sleep only 4 hours but feel rested or sleep 12 hours every night?
Read minds or predict the future?
Always have cold hands or cold feet?
Be stuck in summer forever or winter forever?
Unlimited Pepsi Max or unlimited ice cream?
Goth room or minimalist white room?
Camera battery at 100% forever or unlimited storage?
Never overthink again or never get migraines again?——————————————————————————
Looking forward to get to know you and see your answers.
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› Finding My Old Blog After 9 Years | Memories, Old Photos & Who I Used to Be
Looking back at an old blog from 2017, old selfies, forgotten memories, family, grief, growing older and the person I used to be..
Having a best friend who stalks my old blog — okay, not stalks, but checks it from time to time — is actually hilarious.
I had completely forgotten about it. Not the blog itself, but the name of it! Until she sent me the link.
Oh my god.
I wrote on that blog last time on December 1, 2017. That is almost 9 years ago.
Going through the posts, seeing the pictures and reading a bit was a roller-coaster of emotions. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I fought not to shed tears.
Reading about when I was learning Arabic, dealing with my mom’s cancer, my dad’s death and so much more… it really brought back a lot.
One thing I found absolutely hilarious was all the old photos of myself. WAOW! Holy… I don’t even know — cheese? 👀
Oh well. I was NOT ready for it.
I had completely forgotten about my “signature” selfie style. The makeup. The poses. Oh lord, how embarrassing!
Mind you, that blog had over 150 subscribers/followers that I called “ghosts” because I was obsessed with Halloween back then and I’m still obsessed with Halloween now. 😂
So at least 150 people saw those photos. I eventually closed down that blog because there was a lot going on in my personal life. I had no energy. Nothing to write about that felt worth writing about.
Not that EverFlow is much better…Haha!
These are a few of the pictures I found of myself on that blog and I am laughing so hard at myself.
Like… wow. How?!
My best friend said I looked older back then and I’m like: “Excuse me?” She said I should take it as a compliment that I look “younger” now.
She’s weird… I know. 😂Anyway, have fun.
Enjoy these 9 horrible photos of me from when I was 26–27 years old. Yup. i was almost 30 and walked around looking like that. I’m turning 36 now and barely wear makeup anymore.
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› Life Lately | A Little EverFlow Update From Home
A little look at everyday life, social training, motherhood, getting around on crutches, and dealing with an injured foot.
Hello my spicy pumpkins! 🖤
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How are you all doing today? I hope you all have an amazing day / evening!
I thought I should post a mixed blog post with a bit of what I’ve been doing lately when I haven’t been blogging. Mostly photos though. A picture say more than a thousand words – isn’t that the saying?
E and I have been social training a couple of times — at the same time as we’ve been grocery shopping, but these times have been in town. Not at home. So it has been a lot of bus rides and walking. Shopping, spending time together, laughs, happiness but of course tears and sadness. Nothing special has happened with the sadness, but you can’t always have bright, colorful and happy days.
Alone on the bus. Take which ever the seat you want. 
Telling him to slow down and go next to me is impossible.
Trying to keep up with the same speed as E when walking — that must look interesting and funny. Screaming blue crutches, a heffalump (me) dressed in black and probably with a backpack as usual. Even the thought of that makes me laugh! Like… what!?Do you know the boy who copies and making fun of his mom when walking? Little boy!
Thief. Always steal my extra legs. Haha!
I thought I’d share some photos from the time. I’m currently in bed, resting my foot, neck and stomach. Stomach pain after today’s visit to the hospital.
Update on my foot: 8/10 pain right now.Ice Cream Date
Random pics from the time.
Broken adapter.. I accidentally dropped it on the floor. Now I know how an adapter for phonecharger looks like inside. 
I need these as tattoos.