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› It’s been two chaotic days with the design
I’ve been a little quiet for two days.
Not because I ran out of thoughts, but because I got stuck trying to make everything perfect.
Tweaking layouts, changing headers, chasing the “right” feeling.
But EverFlow was never meant to be perfect. It was meant to feel like home.
Messy, honest, evolving.
So… I’m back.
And I think it’s time to stop decorating the house and start living in it again.
Honestly, I’m not fully happy with the design or the header yet — but that can wait for another day.
Right now, I just want to be back here.
My goal?
To make EverFlow feel like a home, not just a blog. -
› Top tip
What’s your top tip to be successful in life?
Always be yourself. Be kind but firm – don’t get pushed over. Don’t trust people easily. Trust a snake instead. Don’t share your personal stuff with people and mostly, focus on your goals and move in the shadows.
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› A few words
Just a few simple sentences can make a grown woman cry.
Hello my beautiful flowers! HAPPY MIDSUMMER! Today it’s Midsummer holiday here in Sweden! I don’t celebrate that.
Today when I went to the store with E, running around andnl higs every random child he sees. I apologize to the parents instantly and explain why. . Here comes the part of me crying..
A stranger/random woman came up to me and said “never apologize for yourself or your child”. More were exchange but I don’t remember thougt.
“You are a fantastic mother and I see how you struggle but I want to make you smile by being honest”
Few more words were exchanged but I don’t wanna sound arrogant so I became this emotional person- I started to cry alot.
I will tell more tomorrow but right now.. I am so tired so im off to bed! Goodnight ♡ -
› The Secret I’ve Been Carrying
Some fears are too heavy to carry in silence.
I have kept a secret from you guys.
I don’t even know how to fully explain it, but this AI-generated image of me captures the feeling better than words ever could
Ai generated picture of me and this situation.
Let me share a little — but not everything.
There are countless photos and videos of me and my son that have been saved. Manipulated images of us in different scenarios…and there is so much more I could say.
I want to tell you everything. I truly do.
But right now, I don’t know if this person has access to my blog, and that uncertainty alone is enough to make me hesitate.
Living with that kind of fear… constantly wondering who is watching, what they know, and what they might do with the things they collect — it changes you.
It puts your nervous system on high alert.
It steals your sense of safety.
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› Ready for an Adventure
Hello my beautiful flowers! I hope you all are doing good! How are you?
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●A bus ride, a crowded grocery store and one very determined little adventurer.
I just sat down after today’s adventure with E. As you know, he has autism – level 3 – and is non-verbal. Due to him not having the after-school care thingy for the rest of the summer, I have to come up with a million ideas of what to do with him – like I normally do, but living here, it’s not that fun. At least he enjoys it.
Today’s adventure; bus, grocery store, bus and home.
He has been nagging about the trip we went on to another city – bus, train, shopping, train, bus – and I have always felt really bad for saying “not today, maybe tomorrow” etc.
Today he repeatedly said “bus, shopping – bus” and started to get ready > pants, shirt, underwear (he took care of his hygiene himself), brushed his teeth and hair, put on his shoes and jacket.
“Ready!” all of a sudden I heard while I was out on the balcony.
I laughed when I saw him ready for an adventure, so I took him on a bus ride (he is obsessed with buses) and the joy when we finally sat down on the bus. Oh my.
When I saw the parking lot at the grocery store, my heart started to beat super fast and I felt that I didn’t want to do this. The parking lot was MAXED with cars! It was insane!
But I had promised E, so I ignored my feelings and we got off. I told E to hold my hand and whatever he did – do not let my hand go.
Luckily, if a child gets lost in Sweden, people usually help them find their parent or notify store staff. So while I was worried about the crowds and the noise, I wasn’t worried about E getting abducted or anything like that.
While inside, oh my God. I wanted to turn around instantly. My mind was racing:
“How will this go? How will E act?” (He gets tantrums when there are a lot of people and noises.) “Where are the hearing protections?” etc.
Toys; as a reward (before actually entering the food sections of the store), I got him a second train. I knew that would help him stay a little calmer because he could focus on that one.
Food sections; thank God I have taught E to hold the cart in front of me and me behind him. So it’s me – E – cart.
Because oh my Lord how insane people are when holidays are happening in Sweden. This time; Midsummer.
We literally had to do a maze between people to grab our stuff and when we were outside after the shopping, I let out the biggest sigh of relief. We were done.
We did it!
Remind me to never go to grocery stores during holidays or a few days before. It was worse than Christmas time and people in Sweden are insane when it comes to Christmas and Easter.