Face behind the blog
Here is all the posts with pictures of me in. They are also added in different categories – Visual diary, Observations, Places / Notes or Currently.
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› Currently running on anxiety and caffeine
Trying to survive another week of stress, meetings, and overthinking.
When will this finally be over?
Tomorrow, I have another meeting about the accusations and the lawsuit.
For the past two hours, I’ve been sitting with law books & internet, reading different laws, paragraphs, rules, and documents about how the school has treated me.
Fight for my rights. Fight for the truth
One month.
A constant battle.
Me against them.
The law is on my side, and I know I did the right thing, but somehow they always manage to twist everything around and make it feel like it’s my fault instead.
I now have seven pages written down with laws, arguments, and everything I need to bring up tomorrow.
This time, there will also be another person involved.
Someone higher up.
Someone who hopefully actually listens.My thoughts are everywhere right now.
I can’t focus.
I can’t relax.
My mind is running at full speed.
Anxiety.
Stress.
That small feeling of panic sitting in my chest.
And honestly?
I don’t know how this will end.
Better?
Worse?
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› Confidence Feels Different Now
Trying to reconnect with confidence I used to have.
Even though I smile infront of the camera, I struggle. After a while, I finally did my makeup again.
People were staring at me while I was walking down the street on my way to pick up my son.
Honestly?
I don’t care. Sorta.
I’m alternative, and when I finally have both the energy and the time to do my makeup, I do it.
Today’s look was black, brown, and red around the eyes.
I’m also trying to step out of my comfort zone by wearing black eyeshadow again as a plus size woman.
A few years ago, after losing 40 kg, I used to wear dark makeup all the time and felt amazing and confident.With filters? Sure. But real life feels different sometimes.
Today… I don’t feel that confidence the same way anymore.
At least not outside.
Plus size can also be alternative. But today, I didn’t go all out. Just a little. -
› I Blame My ADHD and Its Impulse Decisions
Being bored and having ADHD is honestly a dangerous combination.
And I… oooph.
Having ADHD and being bored is honestly not a great combination.
My hair was dark chocolate brown with grey roots showing, and while I was relaxing (kind of) in front of the TV, I suddenly got the massive urge to dye my hair.
So I did.
I couldn’t fight the impulse.
The result?
Brown with red tones.
And honestly… it’s kinda pretty.
Normally I have neon red hair, but this time I wanted to try something different. I’ve never had brown and red mixed together before.
Maybe not showing so good but it’s a pretty color.
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› A Little Saturday Adventure
Cinnamon buns, tiny sunglasses, and a slow Saturday in town.
Glimpses of my Saturday, even though the day isn’t over yet.
Today, my son and I took the bus into town to meet up with M (his dad) and have a little Swedish fika together.
Well… E did, at least.
A cinnamon bun and a Cola Zero.
While M walked around the stores with E, I quietly snuck away to look for a pair of sunglasses for him.
I happened to spot a tiny pair in his size and bought them instantly.
So maybe now he can finally stop stealing mine.
He takes them constantly. Haha.
I was lucky though.
They were the last pair left.
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› Somewhere warm, soon.
Dreaming about slower days, salty air, and quiet moments away from everyday life.
(Old photo but only one I have of me actually thinking. Lol it was an accidentally snapshot when I was gonna send a snap to a friend. But I had to save it. Lol ) Lately I’ve been daydreaming a lot about traveling.
Warm evenings, slower days, salty air, camera walks, and finally feeling sunlight without immediately wanting to hide from the heat.
I keep imagining tiny moments already.
Late dinners outside.
Music in my headphones while walking somewhere unfamiliar.
Taking photos of random little details nobody else notices.
I think I need this trip more than I realized.
Not for big adventures, honestly.
Just to breathe differently for a little while.
I want to take photos and explore the less touristy sides of places. The hidden gems, quiet alleys, tiny details, real life, and small moments that most people walk past without noticing.
Just like I did in Italy.
I still remember the colorful houses, the sunsets, the sea, and even two nuns I randomly saw while walking around with my camera.
I felt strangely at home there.
Standing near the sea with my camera in my hand.
Calm.
Relaxed.
Mentally rested for the first time in a long while.
Exactly what my mind needs right now.
Quiet.
Calmness.
And just… breathing.