ALL POSTS FROM EMMAS.
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› Christmas eve 2025. Ups and downs.
I hope you all had an wonderful Christmas- or if you celebrate it today, have a wonderful Christmas!
In Sweden we celebrate Christmas on December 24th. I dont know why some countries celebrates on 24th (Scandinavia and some part of Europe I think) and some on the 25th.
The gingerbread cookie… Will it make me nice or not? Do I get presents/gifts next year or coal from Santa?
Our Christmas has been been a rollercoaster. It has been both good but also overstimulated for E. Luckily it was just the three of us – if we were more, it would end bad.
Some part of the Christmas dinner. Yes, I had been eating the saffron cake during the day due to me being in front of/over the stove pretty much all day and I hadn’t had time to eat. 😅
This year we tried something “new,” and it was fried raw potatoes instead of having regular potatoes. Honestly, not bad, but it made me realize that I’m tired of fried raw potatoes—we have eaten that a lot lately.
It looks way more than it really is on the plate. I had to go close to get pictures of it all. Lol!
Raw fried potatoes, ham, meatballs, sausage (prinskorv in Swedish > prince sausage), my homemade saffron cake, liver pate and beetroot salad. Delicious!
We also had spareribs with honey & ginger glaze, but I didn’t like that.
E tried mustard for the first time last night and he likes it! Ew in my opinion.
Fun fact: I use mustard on the ham before I put it in the oven, and when M and I went Christmas food shopping, I grabbed a bottle of mustard—just to use it for the ham—and I said, “Having this big bottle will be unnecessary because we use it one time a year and later have it in the fridge. “None of us eat mustard,“ but lo and behold, E eats it. So now the mustard will come to use and not be all the way in the back of the fridge.
Now when Christmas if officially over in my household, everything with decorations, tree etc will be packed, boxed and off to the storage room again til next year.
The reason why so fast is that I really hate Christmas. I haven’t had a good childhood/adulthood when it comes to Christmas, so if it was up to me, I would not put up a Christmas tree, decorations, etc., but I do it for E because I refuse to let him have the same bad childhood on Christmas as I did. Normally I pack down everything on the 24th when E has fallen asleep for the day/night, but this year I had no energy after having been in the kitchen all day, plus cleaning and trying to study/send in essays at the same time, but this weekend it will be removed when E is not home.
Anyway, enough about the bleh moments! I’m currently watching my son playing with the toys he got, and hearing him laugh and seeing him smile is worth everything.
I took pictures of him opening presents, etc., but I don’t want to show them here, but I will share one toy I bought him that he is obsessed over.
It’s supposed to be an advent calendar with 24 different boxes for him to open one per day but we all know that wouldn’t work so we decided to give him as a present instead.
This truck with all the cars is his new obsession. He also got a radio remote car, a new garbage truck (his old one is in bad shape and he is super obsessed with it), a new backpack and some more I can’t remember right now.
Successful Christmas for E. I got my Christmas food, and that’s all that matters.
Merry Christmas my beautiful and wonderful friends 🩷🎄
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› MERRY CHRISTMAS 🎄
✨️🎄✨️
MERRY CHRISTMAS
MY BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL AND LOVELY PEOPLE 🎄
I hope you all have an amazing and wonderful day with your loved ones 🩷
Thank you everyone for have being a part of my life 🩷 I’m truly thankful for each and everyone of you!
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› Giant nursery crib? Til..this?
Oh, I have forgotten to show you guys! Proud mama bear moment!
If you guys remember this post [here] my son now officially a big boy!
Earlier he had a bed that we’ve been renting from the hospital (in the post), and my best friend/godmother to E said it looked like a giant crib (those beds for babies), and I never thought of that before, but after she said that, I couldn’t unsee it.
The bed that we have had since he was .. three years old I think. We rented it due to E being an run awayer in the middle of the night. One time I found him (this was before this bed) at the front door in my apartment complex.. in the middle of the night. Yes I had locked the door.
I spoke with the CPS about the bed (due to safety reasons, etc.) together with the hospital, and I got approved. Sure, I didn’t need to talk to them, but due to me having a child with special needs… People don’t understand how it is, so yeah. I have been involved with them ever since so I figured out it would be better to have a true, straight communication with them. Anyway, they said yes, so we ordered it. After having gotten the bed, E felt so safe. He had his own place. I made it into a fort sometimes so he could have his own little “house” to be in, and he loved it.
Note this this bed also had a beamer you could have over the closed doors (kinda lock him in) and that was approved as well. Yes I am keeping my blog raw and authentic so the truth is being told .
Fast forward to now … He wasn’t home, and the bed was waiting to get picked up! So I unscrewed the whole entire bed and had M help me carry it down to the basement. It stood in the basement until the guys from the hospital-special-team-helping-thing came and picked it up. The past weekend (12th & 13th of December) we worked hard to get every piece together.
This Wednesday (17th) E came home and he has been sleeping in it every night. I am so proud of him.
The boy who was super happy and excited. Jumped right into bed after seeing it and was ready to go to sleep. Giving goodnight kisses and saying goodnight.. at 5pm.. That’s how excited he got.
So cute but yeah. He is now a big boy and a big boy need a big boy bed.
The green alien is from Ikea and the gnome / Santa is from Jysk – an scandinavian home/sleeping department store or what to call it.
I do not know why all the text is in the caption of the media/pictures. I tried to fix it, but it doesn’t work, so I’m going to leave it like it is.
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› Panic, but I think I made it, but it made my head go loco.
the hustle. the stress. the panic. the warnings. It made my head go loco.
But guess who managed to fix it? I DID!!!! I got a warning from my teacher that I was about to fail some classes, and this is the last week I have to do the last of the assignments. I have been sitting for several days for HOURS and just worked my butt off and sent them in. I now “only” have five left plus a presentation on Monday, and after that I am done for this first semester!
So I am extremely happy and actually surprised, plus in shock of myself. One week and I have sent in… I don’t know how many assignments. Is that my ADHD working? Better under pressure? I have no idea, but I can honestly say—next semester and the last one, I do NOT want to do this again!
So because of this, my head is now all loco! Hopefully I can take a small break this weekend and get some rest for my head but if I know myself.. I won’t.
This year my mental health has really declined so much, but I’m hopeful that next year will be a better year. I started with a new medicine a week ago for my ADHD (I requested it myself), and it has actually helped me get a bit more focus. Sure, I’m still tired, so I also got new sleeping pills that knock me completely out. So I haven’t taken them every day—two pills since last week. I will only take it when E is not home and I have nothing important the day after. Mama needs her sleep! That’s why I’m hopeful! Hopefully it will help me get better.
I have even started to do some makeup which has been superloooong time ago. Last Monday (15th) I had red eyelook and visited my last internship location before school. Let me tell you guys, the look on my kids / students. Oh my. They complimented me so much and that actually made me happy so I have been using makeup twice this week.
So I am a bit hopeful about 2026. I’m working hard to become myself. The bubbly, happy, laughing, goofy Emma.
Thank you everyone for reading. 🤍 As you know, my head is all messed up now, so I apologize that I haven’t answered any comments yet. I will when my head allows me. Even writing this post takes energy. Plus I have been at an education presentation today, and I actually fell asleep for a few seconds, so today is a tired day for me.
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› My life ? 1 year ago?
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?
Nope. My life is actually worse. Well not life, but my mental health is. There for I have been off so much in the blog but im working hard on returning to myself. To be the happy, bubbly, smiling, laughing Emma again.