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› Confidence Feels Different Now
Trying to reconnect with confidence I used to have.
Even though I smile infront of the camera, I struggle. After a while, I finally did my makeup again.
People were staring at me while I was walking down the street on my way to pick up my son.
Honestly?
I don’t care. Sorta.
I’m alternative, and when I finally have both the energy and the time to do my makeup, I do it.
Today’s look was black, brown, and red around the eyes.
I’m also trying to step out of my comfort zone by wearing black eyeshadow again as a plus size woman.
A few years ago, after losing 40 kg, I used to wear dark makeup all the time and felt amazing and confident.With filters? Sure. But real life feels different sometimes.
Today… I don’t feel that confidence the same way anymore.
At least not outside.
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› Only a few days and I am missing it?
Hello everyone! Goodmorning, good evening, good afternoon or goodnight to everyone!
How are you? I’m currently in bed (soon 11pm) and I am ready to sleep! Today has been kinda stressful. Paying bills, rush to school, calculations, grocery shopping, home and fix dinner, get my son from school, give him a shower, get him to fall asleep but unfortunately 30 minutes after he fell asleep he woke up so I had to try again and here iam right now. In bed, catching my breath after today!
Wooh been so much today! Anyway! Hopefully tomorrow is more calm. No school for me tomorrow so hopefully my body let me go to gym and out for photowalk! I haven’t been to the gym for a while due to busy schedules and now I’m ready to get back to it! Let’s gooooo!!
Also I haven’t been out on photowalk since Friday. Finally my body is better (a lot!) after the fall but I’m still in pain. Today I woke up with chestpain and have had it all day. Only on left side though but do not worry because it is only the muscles that is cramping or what to call it.
such a lovely picture of me. The rest of the week is all about school, meetings, continue to throw away stuff, demolishing furnitures etc. Can’t wait! And this weekend, hopefully husband doesn’t work one day so we can go to the recycling center and throw away the things.
What is new with you guys? You all good? I see your comments and likes but WP doesn’t let me answer them! I am so sorry! I’m working on it!
I have also seen that I have new followers! Thank you so so much!!! I hope you enjoy my little corner and please, tell me what you would like to ready / see here (this goes for everyone 😊)
So i guess im off to bed. My brain/head is not tired yet so I assume I’m gonna do some “coloring” on a app called Happy Colors (not sponsored). Such a good app to help me calm down every day.
Good night!
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› September’s last fashion & I’m being a nervous wreck
People are always starring at me but I don’t care. I have a unique style – a mix of alternative and goth but sometimes I switch it up with cute t-shirts. Today’s fashion was simple. As usual, my jeans vest and hoodie is on. It’s cold here in Sweden so now my other pair of wintersocks is out.
This is actually the only blog I ever share full body pictures of myself and it is a challenge from my comfort zone so be kind. Lol!
Dirty mirror at school and it’s okey.
● Handbag from Guess (birthday present from husband) ● Shoes from Tommy Hilfiger ● Jeansvest from H&M ● Skirt & T-shirt from Shein ● Cardigan & Hoodie from New Yorker ● Wintersocks & pants from a swedish hardware store named Jula.● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●
Tomorrow I will be a nervous wreck because my son is going under anesthetic and I am so scared. Have you or know someone who has been under that? Please tell me because it is the first time ever for my son and for me. So I’m a wreck. Haha!
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› Big change on me, fashion and style
New week, new start and new responsibilities. Hello Monday! and Hello you all beautiful souls! I hope you all are doing good!
School ✔️ Gym ✔️ Dinner ✔️
today’s fashion. Crazy cold outside so the winter socks is now officially out for the season. Yesterday I got a spontaneous thought and idea. I know I have said that I would leave my hair to rest from all colors bombs etc but last night I dyed it red. Inside it looks darkred / winered color but outside it’s a bit brighter red.
I finally can say I feel like myself again. My teacher had to check three times who I was til he saw my sunglasses. I had them on when I entered the classroom. It was kinda funny.
The stares I got in the town on my way home was crazy! So many stared at me for being unique and having a different style than a “normal” swedish style. One child even said to her mother “mom look at her style! it’s so cool“. I smiled so much. Normally I thought children would find me weird etc when I walk with all black, hoodie and jeans jacket etc but this comment made me so happy.
One girl also came up and asked me where I got my bag from. I explained to her that I bought it 2007 when I was in Stockholm (capital of Sweden) and met the band Tokio Hotel. So it’s an “vintage” bag. lol.
the hair Went home and grabbed my stuff for the gym. Joined my husband and because of my back, I couldn’t do so much and for a long time. One hour on treadmill will do it. Soft start. Low level. No uphill. After that hour I felt so much pain in my back and in my hip so slow and soft start.
But hopefully it will help me get better and less pain in my body.
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› OOTD (Outfit of the day?) ish kinda.
Friday’s look of “fashion” in school. My Gothic/ Alternative style. Unfortunately all my black leggings is dirty (laundry tomorrow) so I had to go with the “only-stay-home-leggings”.
Yes.. it was not worth having those leggings because oh my lord how freezing cold it was. But I didn’t have time to run up to the apartment after I left to change. So I had to bring the “viking” in me out from my inner but I can honestly say, the viking didn’t want to step forward either. LOL!
tired mama face. there for covering the face. ofcourse, either Pepsi max or coca cola zero in my hand (unless I have my coffee).
Today I did an practice exam in math and ohmylord how my brain couldn’t function during it. I was too afraid to ask my teacher how many rights I had but I know I failed hard.
After the exam I struggled really hard on what I was gonna count, calculate, write the equations, equations in different both ways etc, for an example (and no this one aint in the book because I dont have the book infront of me so I don’t know the answer on this one) 4x-7-2x=18-3y and also like 5x-7y/9•4 . gosh I even get dizzy for just writing it.
Anyway, it’s finally weekend! woho! You got any plans?
I’m gonna just be home. Maybe go to the gym when husband comes home from work tomorrow and he can take care of E while I’m gone..but it depends of how tired he is.
other than that.. just a chill weekend. E is having sleep over next week so I’ll go to the school and gym. I don’t need to stress and rush things to manage the time. it’s a lot of stress to combine school, motherhood, health (mentally and physically) but hey, im trying.