best friend – The EVERFLOW

Fall is here, the leaves are dancing, the crutches are still following me around, and life is… well, life.

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Hello my beautiful pumpkins! 🎃🎃

Now it is officially fall! (I know I say it again, but honestly, fall is the best season according to me.)

I love the cold air, the color shift on the leaves, seeing them swirl, “dance” down and give their last performance!

I have been quiet for a bit, I know. The reason is that I really don’t have much to tell at the moment due to me being on crutches. Well, I’m supposed to use them, but as you all know me, I’m stubborn as hell. 😂 I used them in the beginning, but now I’m fighting through the pain because I don’t want to need them anymore.
I still bring them with me if I go out — to the city, for example — in case the pain gets unbearable and I need a bit of “pain relief.”

So, what’s up with you? Any updates?

For me? Nothing really.

• Voted in the election — meaning, I did my duty as a Swedish citizen. 🇸🇪
• Slowly stopping one medication to introduce another one over time.
• Not amputated my foot — miracle.
• Studied.
• Had a fever last week, so no school for me.
• Had a birthday dinner date with my Queen Alien — my best friend. Yeah, I know, she’s my cousin, but that is so weird to write/say, so I will not mention that again. 🥲

Looking back at an old blog from 2017, old selfies, forgotten memories, family, grief, growing older and the person I used to be..

Having a best friend who stalks my old blog — okay, not stalks, but checks it from time to time — is actually hilarious.

I had completely forgotten about it. Not the blog itself, but the name of it! Until she sent me the link.

Oh my god.

I wrote on that blog last time on December 1, 2017. That is almost 9 years ago.

Going through the posts, seeing the pictures and reading a bit was a roller-coaster of emotions. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I fought not to shed tears.

Reading about when I was learning Arabic, dealing with my mom’s cancer, my dad’s death and so much more… it really brought back a lot.

One thing I found absolutely hilarious was all the old photos of myself. WAOW! Holy… I don’t even know — cheese? 👀

Oh well. I was NOT ready for it.

I had completely forgotten about my “signature” selfie style. The makeup. The poses. Oh lord, how embarrassing!

Mind you, that blog had over 150 subscribers/followers that I called “ghosts” because I was obsessed with Halloween back then and I’m still obsessed with Halloween now. 😂

So at least 150 people saw those photos. I eventually closed down that blog because there was a lot going on in my personal life. I had no energy. Nothing to write about that felt worth writing about.

Not that EverFlow is much better…Haha!

These are a few of the pictures I found of myself on that blog and I am laughing so hard at myself.

Like… wow. How?!

My best friend said I looked older back then and I’m like: “Excuse me?” She said I should take it as a compliment that I look “younger” now.

She’s weird… I know. 😂

Anyway, have fun.

Enjoy these 9 horrible photos of me from when I was 26–27 years old. Yup. i was almost 30 and walked around looking like that. I’m turning 36 now and barely wear makeup anymore.

What a journey and roller-coaster of thoughts, feelings etc 😂🖤