teardrops from heaven.

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as much as this blog will have a lot of photographs I have been taking I also will be sharing about my life and days. Like today my day was not good in school. I did a big exam in math and failed.

Math has always been a subject I always hated. I never got any help in school when I was younger and now iam in a class where I get a lot of help and actually learn math. That’s crazy! Back to the test, I tried hard. I doodled my calculations,  I counted etc but yet I failed it. Luckily I can re-do it later. But it made the teach and I talk more about my past of school experiences etc. Let me just say that they were not good. We also spoke about my future, how the teacher will help me etc.

So after our talk, it got me thinking hard of my education. Iam already a nurse assistant but don’t wanna work on hospital etc anymore so I decided to study to become a preschool teacher. But here’s the problem, it’s in an other city and my husband has two jobs.. And we have E. So I must rethink my new carrier move. 

I love teaching. I taught my husband swedish (fluently)  both talking and writing on 6 months. I have easy to learn languages. I’ve learned sign language etc to communicate with my son when he can’t talk  (he is non verbal but actually learning to say some words). And that’s how my thoughts of becoming a preschool teacher started..  I teach the children same as I teach my son. but like I said ..the education are in an other city and requires 5 days a week at school.

so now iam confused and lost. Should I give up this as I gave up my dreams to become a photographer for national geographic magazine.. as I have given up a dream carrier as a translator on arabic and spanish for embassies and governments (no education here in Sweden for that). what will my next move be?

tomorrow it’s time for math again. 12h a week in school.. only math. lovely. but tomorrow I will try attacking algebra and I’m scared.