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› What are some things that make you smile?
What are some things that make you smile? that is actually one hard question. There is so many things but my absolute number one thing that makes me smile is my son.

Pic from our roadtrip we did. Oct 12th 2024 Watching my boy growing up. See how proud he is when he manage to say words that we would understand. How he manage to have cracked the code for talking and saying few words and tries to say full sentences.
What make me smile is watching my son grow up and become independent, which he already is now but not on everything but mostly everything.
My son has autism. To be correct, he has autism 3 (the hardest autism) and is non verbal (can’t talk like us) so you can all understand my smiles and my happiness whenever E has learned to say a new word.
He tries really hard and he has improved so so much. He say or try to say words but he also sign them. If we do not understand him, we guess til he shows us that it was correct. Or if he is impatient he will just grab our hand and show us.
so this is one thing that will forever make me smile.. My beloved son 💕
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› A roller-coaster of emotions. No sleep and no rest.

Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋 I hope you all are doing good!
been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?
So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.
They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.
afterwards, we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.
Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.
I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.
It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..
30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.
yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..
Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much. Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.
conclusion; E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻
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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!
I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋
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› We are home!!
Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.
When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.
Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.

I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.
This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.
Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰
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› Tears of joy!
What brings a tear of joy to your eye?
What really brings me to tears of joy?
I’m gonna talk first about me being a mother to a child with autism 3 and is non-verbal. Nothing brings me more joy and happiness than watching my son develop and grow. Learning how to talk (not like us though) on his own way with words that are almost correct, sign languages etc. To hear all fantastic progress he do in school, with friends and everyone. Also ofcourse watching my son having fun, laughing, cuddling with me or his father. Getting the family hugs (us three hug together) . Everything with my son to be honest. When he has his tantrums and frustration (not a tear of joy part) and I can help him to calm down. I learn on the same time on what’s working for him and not. The learning part of being able to comfort E the best way gives me joy (maybe not tears of joy).
Laugh til I can’t breathe. That is one favorite thing I have. Whether if it’s joking with E, or he do something that makes me laugh or having goofy time with my husband.
hanging out with friends and we laugh a lot. that’s joy for me.
but shortly; the tears of joy for me is when it comes to my son. The development . The learning. The love. Everything.
What is you tears of joy?
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› Recaps of the good and bad moments of this month
Goodbye August. Thank you for this time. It’s been a chaotic month.
Now when the summer is officially over (here in Sweden it is) and first day off fall (for me) is tomorrow (sep 1rst) it’s time to say thank you for this month and share some recaps of August 2024. This year’s August has been good but also bad. How have your August been?
Good; I started in school again ● my son started school again after summer break ● I have begun to go to the gym often this month ● I have been trying to eat better (which I have. especially when my husband and son eats pizza or I’m with my friend. I always pick salad) ● I made this blog ● I work on getting my photographer brain back ● my husband surprised me with a birthday gift (few days late) ~ I will show it later.
Bad; My mental health is still bad but a lot better than it was in the beginning of the year ● I had to say goodbye to my beloved little girl Toulula ● My birthday (I dislike my birthday since I was a kid ~ Family reasons)

So now when September is here (already tomorrow) I hope the month will be much better for me. one thing I know already is that in September, my husband and I celebrate 8 years together ~ now that’s insane. Neither one of us didn’t think we would last but here we are. lol.
(more has happened in August but I can not remember it all right now)
What was your yay and nay with August month?