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› A roller-coaster of emotions. No sleep and no rest.

Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋 I hope you all are doing good!
been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?
So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.
They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.
afterwards, we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.
Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.
I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.
It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..
30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.
yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..
Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much. Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.
conclusion; E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻
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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!
I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋
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› We are home!!
Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.
When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.
Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.

I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.
This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.
Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰
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› What’s on YOUR bucketlist?
Wow this had me thinking a lot! Kinda hard question to answer ~ Whats on YOUR bucketlist? (feel free to comment below what’s on yours!)
For years and years I have been adding and removing stuff from my bucketlist. I have completed some on the list. Removed those who seems impossible and not do-able. But what is really on my bucketlist?
Traveling is ofcourse on my bucketlist. Visit as many countries as possible. Especially Santorini (Greece), Mykanos, Kenya, Dubai, Abu Dabi, Spain, Canada, Bali and many more. Travel the world! Explore the wonders around earth. Try new exciting things & food. To see the different cultures etc.
Career; having a career that I feel like myself in. Preschool teacher, photographer or just something online (html codes etc). Everyone say I’m still young and don’t need to decide yet but really I have no idea. All I know is that “having a career” is on my bucket list.
Family; Move to a house with my son and husband. Maybe expand the family. Adopt (animals and children). Watch my child/ren (future) grow up and become the amazing humans they are.
Meet people who has common interest as me.
I have a lot on my bucketlist and it feels like it’s an Neverending list. But will I be able to achieve one or two of them? The ones that are on the list now.
Other things on my bucketlist are;
Adrenaline; go skydiving, Bungee jumping
Animals; pet/hug an elephant (my favorite animal), Go on safaris in Africa etc. Save atleast one animal. See a raccoon irl (we don’t have those in Sweden)
Learn; Learn to fluently speak & write ~ Arabic, Spanish and punjab. How to calculate math (this will be a hard one). Learn real English with correct spelling and grammar.
Helping; Volunteer on some special cause, help build something for someone. Give someone a real chance in life (help a homeless find a job, a home and get back on its feets. I know I have seen to many movies and series)
I have actually more on my bucketlist but the post would be too long. Haha! but Whats on YOUR bucketlist? comment and tell me. Maybe we share same goals.
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› Successful day!!! My autistic boy did so good I could cry!
Wow! Finally a moment to breathe! Hello everyone! How are you all? Today has been a crazy day. So much to do, run around etc. Woosh.. But now iam finally in bed and can write this post.
Today was a success day for E! And iam so happy and proud!

cover face of E and my husband We went to the doctors today. We didn’t know why we got the appointment and neither did the doctor. Oh well, the doctor did a check up on E while we were there. She wanted to listen to his heart and took the stethoscope and E actually let her listen! Of course it was a limit of time for her according to E so he took the stethoscope to listen to his heart and mine. He did sign for heart and said it out loud. He was sooooo playful in there. Took a face mask and tried on… for the very first time ever in his life!! When I used one, he always ripped it off and we’re so scared so this is a huge step for E ! He also took that tongue stick thingy and didn’t know what to do with it so I showed him on myself and he did it on himself. He took it to far back in his throat though but laughed. No harm done!
Yes I’m sharing this because it is a big moment for me as a mother. A mother to a special need child who face a lot of obstacles in life. So every happy thing that happen in his life is a mountain growing of pure happiness and proudness for me 🥺
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› Saturday Gallery | Quality time, road trip – nature & the sea
it was a too gorgeous day to not go on a little roadtrip the three of us. E, my husband and I. We had no destination in mind. We just drove. Enjoying the nature, the sun and having quality time with the family.
It all started when M came home from work. Tired as he was he always make sure E is happy. After being home for two hours, laughed and had fun with E. I suggested that we could go on a car ride. When I was in Norway, my husband and E went out every weekend on car rides and we have it as well when M is home.
So we went out. E as happy as he could be. Just the three of us. It was a perfect moment.

We actually drove to a resort by the sea. My husband knows I love the sea and took me to the sea. Unfortunately I couldn’t get out of the car as much as I wanted but it’s ok. All the photos are taking through carwindow.
The car ride started that M needed to go to the pharmacy. He was there and came out with an ice cream for E. The happiness of E! And after that we just drove and drove. Two hours in a car. Iam actually surprised that E was so calm (autism etc) and he was so happy. And I was happy. My family, having a quality time. And ofcourse, I got to see the sea!
It is something special with the sea. I feel calm next to it. The view. The sounds. The smells. It calms my soul I wish I was able to go to the sea daily. I can during weekdays but it’s too crowded and it’s not a .. sea sea view you know.
I might sound weird but I feel as most “home” when I’m next to water. Lake, river or the Sea. I’m drawn to the water. Always have. My mom told me when I was younger (I spoke to her about the water etc before she passed) I always wanted to be in water. When I was in it, it was very difficult to get me out of it. “You were like a fish in the water” she said. I have always had a love for the water. not the drinking water or bottle waters but you know. Haha!
Why is it that iam so drawn to waters ? I love it, I can swim for hours. But I have a phobia for deep waters. If I can’t feel the bottom or see my feets when I’m in the water I get panic.
oops got out of hand here with the post but it is fine. I just wanted to show some pictures (I will post them better later) and talk about our family roadtrip.
I hope you all have a beautiful saturday! I’m actually off to bed. Goodnight & thank you everyone for all the visits, like, comments and just sharing love 🥰