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September’s last fashion & I’m being a nervous wreck
People are always starring at me but I don’t care. I have a unique style – a mix of alternative and goth but sometimes I switch it up with cute t-shirts. Today’s fashion was simple. As usual, my jeans vest and hoodie is on. It’s cold here in Sweden so now my other pair of wintersocks is out.
This is actually the only blog I ever share full body pictures of myself and it is a challenge from my comfort zone so be kind. Lol!
Dirty mirror at school and it’s okey.
● Handbag from Guess (birthday present from husband) ● Shoes from Tommy Hilfiger ● Jeansvest from H&M ● Skirt & T-shirt from Shein ● Cardigan & Hoodie from New Yorker ● Wintersocks & pants from a swedish hardware store named Jula.● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●
Tomorrow I will be a nervous wreck because my son is going under anesthetic and I am so scared. Have you or know someone who has been under that? Please tell me because it is the first time ever for my son and for me. So I’m a wreck. Haha!
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Big change on me, fashion and style
New week, new start and new responsibilities. Hello Monday! and Hello you all beautiful souls! I hope you all are doing good!
School ✔️ Gym ✔️ Dinner ✔️
today’s fashion. Crazy cold outside so the winter socks is now officially out for the season. Yesterday I got a spontaneous thought and idea. I know I have said that I would leave my hair to rest from all colors bombs etc but last night I dyed it red. Inside it looks darkred / winered color but outside it’s a bit brighter red.
I finally can say I feel like myself again. My teacher had to check three times who I was til he saw my sunglasses. I had them on when I entered the classroom. It was kinda funny.
The stares I got in the town on my way home was crazy! So many stared at me for being unique and having a different style than a “normal” swedish style. One child even said to her mother “mom look at her style! it’s so cool“. I smiled so much. Normally I thought children would find me weird etc when I walk with all black, hoodie and jeans jacket etc but this comment made me so happy.
One girl also came up and asked me where I got my bag from. I explained to her that I bought it 2007 when I was in Stockholm (capital of Sweden) and met the band Tokio Hotel. So it’s an “vintage” bag. lol.
the hair Went home and grabbed my stuff for the gym. Joined my husband and because of my back, I couldn’t do so much and for a long time. One hour on treadmill will do it. Soft start. Low level. No uphill. After that hour I felt so much pain in my back and in my hip so slow and soft start.
But hopefully it will help me get better and less pain in my body.
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OOTD (Outfit of the day?) ish kinda.
Friday’s look of “fashion” in school. My Gothic/ Alternative style. Unfortunately all my black leggings is dirty (laundry tomorrow) so I had to go with the “only-stay-home-leggings”.
Yes.. it was not worth having those leggings because oh my lord how freezing cold it was. But I didn’t have time to run up to the apartment after I left to change. So I had to bring the “viking” in me out from my inner but I can honestly say, the viking didn’t want to step forward either. LOL!
tired mama face. there for covering the face. ofcourse, either Pepsi max or coca cola zero in my hand (unless I have my coffee).
Today I did an practice exam in math and ohmylord how my brain couldn’t function during it. I was too afraid to ask my teacher how many rights I had but I know I failed hard.
After the exam I struggled really hard on what I was gonna count, calculate, write the equations, equations in different both ways etc, for an example (and no this one aint in the book because I dont have the book infront of me so I don’t know the answer on this one) 4x-7-2x=18-3y and also like 5x-7y/9•4 . gosh I even get dizzy for just writing it.
Anyway, it’s finally weekend! woho! You got any plans?
I’m gonna just be home. Maybe go to the gym when husband comes home from work tomorrow and he can take care of E while I’m gone..but it depends of how tired he is.
other than that.. just a chill weekend. E is having sleep over next week so I’ll go to the school and gym. I don’t need to stress and rush things to manage the time. it’s a lot of stress to combine school, motherhood, health (mentally and physically) but hey, im trying.
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Stand out in public with statements and photography related
Where I live you can’t stand out .. you will get tons of looks, talks behind your back. bullying etc. And if you are a big person who go outside the standard norms. Oohhh guys!
I’m a plus size. have always been. my entire life. due to a sickness (no I haven’t eaten myself this big) and I have a special unique look. I’m the only one who’s female to have this unique look in the town where I live. That’s pretty cool though but I get tons of negative looks etc.
So lately I have taken my style one step further. No iam not mean or negative in real life. This is just a statement to people can back off and leave me alone. Which has actually worked a bit. Sure I get looks, stares etc but I have learned to ignore it as much as I can. Hard work.
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Today I have been in town (with this fabulous shirt on) to have a meeting. which went good and fun. Not a serious meeting but important.
what else is.. oooh while waiting on the bus to go to the town I was thinking alot.. about photography. As I have written before I miss it. Go out in nature, alone, just quiet time and focus. But I haven’t used my Canon camera for years and my phone (S23 Ultra) has a pretty good camera.. but.. my question is..does it count as photography when you don’t use a system camera? Are using a smartphone the “same” as photographers?
my dream when I was younger were to become a professional photographer and work for national geographic magazine. Get my pictures published in the magazines etc.. but that dream died pretty fast when I read the the criteria(is that the right word?) to become a photographer for them. But I miss photography . Though I have never been interested in taking portraits and pictures of people, weddings etc (I have tried. Wasn’t my thing) but I love taking pictures, edit and make beautiful photos of details and landscape.
is there a photographer out there who might can answer my question?