• Current situation & photowalks in nature.

    Goodmorning pumpkins! I hope you all are doing good this lovely Thursday 🙌🏻

    im currently in thr bath, writing this. It’s freaking cold here in Sweden and due to my diabetes,  my feelings in feets/toes aren’t the best so before I can put on my warm wool socks I need to warm them up.

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    Plans for today? Well I went to the Healthcare clinic two days ago, met with a doctor who said I have no virus so I’m not in risk to get anyone else sick.. so I guess im going to school. WITH CAUTION OFCOURSE! Before school im gonna go buy more supplies of mouth mask/ facemasks. It’s starting to go low at home. And I’ll also sit in the way way back in the class.

    What else? Well i got one of my packages with camera equipment! Woho. My tripod, few filters and also the hand holder (instead of the big to hang around your neck) but unfortunately that hand/wrist holder was bad because I tried it while sitting at the table and it “broke” so luckily the camera was mounted on to the screws.

    I had a photowalk yesterday while the sun was out. Unfortunately it was harsh sunlight and i do not like that. But I managed to fix some pictures though.

    not the best quality online though. I’ll upload more on my Instagram and Facebook page. Through my eyes and camera.

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    Photography for me is my kind of relaxation.  Unfortunately I went through some things the other day that made me decide to not take pictures in town and around buildings. I will tell you guys more about that later. It was a sad decision for me but I am still scared and haven’t been able to shake off what happened.

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  • 5 things I am grateful for

    5 things I am grateful for is kinda hard to think out because I am grateful for so many things. All from my son, to my education, to my interests but I’ll try write five things and maybe in future I can write more. Lol!

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    Five things I am grateful for

    ● My son & family
    I will forever be thankful / grateful for my son who’s a miracle. Growing up the doctors told me to give up my dream (to become a mother) because it would never happen because I’ve PCOS. Yet here I am. A mother for soon seven years. I’m thankful that I have made my own family. A lifepartner and son. My family.
    ● Education
    Growing up I had hard time in school – bullying. No help from teachers or what so ever. But today I have an education – nurse assistant and I am currently studying my old grades up to I can become a preschool teacher. The nurseasssitant education was actually a promise to my mother before I died. She wanted my and my siblings to become a nurse so we would help people more than we did.
    ● Finding myself
    I’m still working on myself and forever will but lately I have found myself a little bit. I’ve managed to get my real style out in public and not being hiding behind other clothes. I dyed my hair neon red again. I have managed to find focus and things to make myself feel better.
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    I’m actually very very grateful for this blog. Even thought I haven’t been updating so much lately (I have posted like 80 posts since august). I’m grateful because I write my thoughts out. Write my life like a journal. Share photographs I’ve taken, ideas, and share my opinions of things.
    ● YOU!
    I’m so grateful for you! Why? Because you are you! Never change for anyone. Never change yourself. I’m grateful because you are here. Life is hard but I’m here to help if you need someone to talk.

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    What are you grateful for?

  • A roller-coaster of emotions. No sleep and no rest.

    Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋  I hope you all are doing good!

    been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?

    So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.

    They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.

    afterwards,  we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.

    Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.

    I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.

    It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..

    30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.

    yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..

    Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much.  Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.

    conclusion;  E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻

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    Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!

    I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋

  • We are home!!

    Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.

    When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.

    Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.

    I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.

    This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.

    Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰