• Stalker, meetings, and leftover pizza

    27/03/2025 /

    Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing good! I’m currently in bed for the night, but I wanted to pop in here and say hello!

    Today has been pretty hectic due to meetings at hospital, monthly grocery shopping within a time limit which was very stressful, repack food before putting in freeze box,  study etc. it has been crazy today so now I’m finally in bed.

    Today’s quick dinner while study; left over pizza. Yesh not healthy but it was something over from last night when M and son ate pizza (I always take chicken salad). *snapchat & filter*

    Every class we get homework todo til next class and with my history of math etc, I struggle really hard.

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    Confession time; I am dead scared of going in school now and alone in town. Why? Because I have a massive stalker who goes to same school as me.

    Back story; I’ve met this man three times. Once at a busstop, once in school and now the third time in town when I was in town with my bestfriend. He snook up behind me and said “Hi Emma!” and I always answer when people talk to me so I said Hi back. After that, it went down hill. E even tried to help me get away from this man and after a while which felt like years he left so we could walk away. I was crying, very uncomfortable,  scared etc. This man has said he was COMING home to me, tried to kiss me, hug me, he touched me etc. More happened but this whole situation trigger me even when thinking of it (I’m shaking rn).

    So my school situation right now is that my teacher know (I texted him the same night it happened, he called and we spoke), the boss over the principal knows and has spoken with all teachers so they all are keeping eyes on me. Which feels very wrong to be honest but I really appreciate it. Yet I am dead scared of going to school  I even have classmates who ends the classes early to walk with me to the busstop. that’s crazy!

    Long story short; I have school five days a week and I really don’t wanna go but still go.

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    I hope you all have an amazing day and remember this; you are fantastic and amazing. Never let anyone else tell you something else. Always.. always be true to yourself.

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  • A fun way for a child to entertain themselves

    04/10/2024 /

    I have found a fun way for my son to entertain himself while I do the laundry. Practice writing numbers and letters. Yes it is the calender but he writes on months that has passed already. Not the current month or months that is coming up. I am so proud of him for how much he has developed since he started the school he attends now. When he was in preschool, they isolated him from other children so he never learned how to be a friend, wait for his turn etc. He never learned how to write etc so I stepped up and taught him. So now since he started in school he has developed so much – he say the letters and he counts to 29 but struggle saying 30. It has happened so fast but I am so proud and happy. In school they are practicing writing the letters but he already knew them. Also counting the numbers is something he has been taught at home so he were impressing the teachers at school when he counted so they decide to keep teach him more numbers so they and we are working on that.

    E is not attending a regular school. He is attending a special need school because he has autism but I am forever thankful for the teachers and how much they have taught him on one year. He is in second grade right now and I can’t believe that he is that big!

    So a simple way to entertain a child while doing laundry(or any other activity) so they learn numbers and letters -> Let them write in a calender with passed months! My son loves it and said over and over again (he did four months) “one more!”. He wanted to write them all!

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  • A roller-coaster of emotions. No sleep and no rest.

    02/10/2024 /

    Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋  I hope you all are doing good!

    been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?

    So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.

    They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.

    afterwards,  we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.

    Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.

    I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.

    It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..

    30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.

    yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..

    Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much.  Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.

    conclusion;  E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻

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    Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!

    I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋

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