real life stories – The EVERFLOW

Saturday. A day when my body shut off. No energy, feeling low and just… numb for some reason.

Not eaten, not doing anything. Just spent 90% of the day in bed.

All of a sudden, I get a text message: “Eyo, what you doing?” It was from J. I hadn’t spoken to anyone for the whole day. One text message here, one message on Messenger there. I answered her, and it all ended up with me getting up, getting dressed and joining her and her friend for a car ride… in the middle of the night.

Why? They were bored, couldn’t sleep, and she was learning how to drive, so they came to me.

During these few hours, I have helped several teens; one I helped up off the ground after being so drunk he fell on his face twice and gave up trying to stand up. I had to comfort one girl who had a fight with her friend and all her emotions came out (she had been through some stuff in a short time), and one girl who fell and hurt herself – which made me let my nurse assistant step forward. Some teens I had to tell off, some teens I had to ask as politely as possible to move, and more.

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Dinner; McDonald’s.
Drinks; Sprite Zero, Pepsi Max and Celsius.
Mood; started bleh but ended up laughing so the abs might show.
Currently; in bed with back pain.

Looking back at an old blog from 2017, old selfies, forgotten memories, family, grief, growing older and the person I used to be..

Having a best friend who stalks my old blog — okay, not stalks, but checks it from time to time — is actually hilarious.

I had completely forgotten about it. Not the blog itself, but the name of it! Until she sent me the link.

Oh my god.

I wrote on that blog last time on December 1, 2017. That is almost 9 years ago.

Going through the posts, seeing the pictures and reading a bit was a roller-coaster of emotions. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I fought not to shed tears.

Reading about when I was learning Arabic, dealing with my mom’s cancer, my dad’s death and so much more… it really brought back a lot.

One thing I found absolutely hilarious was all the old photos of myself. WAOW! Holy… I don’t even know — cheese? 👀

Oh well. I was NOT ready for it.

I had completely forgotten about my “signature” selfie style. The makeup. The poses. Oh lord, how embarrassing!

Mind you, that blog had over 150 subscribers/followers that I called “ghosts” because I was obsessed with Halloween back then and I’m still obsessed with Halloween now. 😂

So at least 150 people saw those photos. I eventually closed down that blog because there was a lot going on in my personal life. I had no energy. Nothing to write about that felt worth writing about.

Not that EverFlow is much better…Haha!

These are a few of the pictures I found of myself on that blog and I am laughing so hard at myself.

Like… wow. How?!

My best friend said I looked older back then and I’m like: “Excuse me?” She said I should take it as a compliment that I look “younger” now.

She’s weird… I know. 😂

Anyway, have fun.

Enjoy these 9 horrible photos of me from when I was 26–27 years old. Yup. i was almost 30 and walked around looking like that. I’m turning 36 now and barely wear makeup anymore.

What a journey and roller-coaster of thoughts, feelings etc 😂🖤