• › Confidence Feels Different Now

    Trying to reconnect with confidence I used to have.

    Even though I smile infront of the camera, I struggle.

    After a while, I finally did my makeup again.

    People were staring at me while I was walking down the street on my way to pick up my son.

    Honestly?
    I don’t care. Sorta.

    I’m alternative, and when I finally have both the energy and the time to do my makeup, I do it.

    Today’s look was black, brown, and red around the eyes.



    I’m also trying to step out of my comfort zone by wearing black eyeshadow again as a plus size woman.

    A few years ago, after losing 40 kg, I used to wear dark makeup all the time and felt amazing and confident.

    With filters? Sure. But real life feels different sometimes.



    Today… I don’t feel that confidence the same way anymore.
    At least not outside.

    Plus size can also be alternative. But today, I didn’t go all out. Just a little.