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› New start, new blog and a small introduction
EDIT: THE BLOG STARTS UNDER THIS POST! This is a “sticky note,” and I have now gotten help to import my other blog posts here from my old blog, so it isn’t empty!
(the rest of the journal post starts under this sticky note post)
Hey guys! I decided to make a completely new blog. Reason? So many reasons so I decided to make a whole new one. A fresh start. New start.
I will blog on this one from now on. I have bought a domain so I’m waiting on it to be active so this blog/corner/journal etc become more “real”.
For all new readers (maybe some are from my old blog), my name is E (will not write my whole name due to the restart of the blog) —goes by Mi. I’m 35 years old and I’m currently a Stay at home mom but studying on the same time.
In my little journal here i will have focus on lifestyle but will also share photos i have taken both of my regular life (moments etc) but also photos I have taken with my “professional” cameras – Canon. Yes I’m a photographer as well. So much!
I am very much into makeup and odd fashion so I will probably be showing that as well. By odd fashion I mean – all black, skulls, skirts etc. Think alternative / Gothic style.
I am also a plus size woman but is working on the weightloss so I will write a bit about that sometimes as well.
What I’ll not show in the blog is pictures of my son’s face. If I share, It will be either blurred or somehow not showing his face.
Like I said, this journal is focused on lifestyle and according to Google, this was a good name. Lol! So let’s see how it works.
Note; I am self-taught English so I apologize for wrong spellings, wrong grammar etc!
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› Chaotic start of 2026
The focus, the stress and the chaos has been real! So glad it’s over for a little bit now.
Hello, my beautiful people! I apologize for not blogging this year (yet), but I have been stressed like a maniac!
Remember when I told you guys that my mental health isn’t so good and that it has been declining? Still low at the moment, but between Christmas and this last Saturday (January 3rd) I have been maniacally stressing through assignments, sending them in, correcting them, chatting with teachers about grades, school, etc. Last night I made, hopefully, the last piece for this semester.
Grades will be decided on January 8, and my next semester starts on January 12th, so I am back to school soon! Crazy!
Let’s appriciate the fact that I have gotten some energy back so I could do some makeup again 🙌🏻
I know that one course with the awful teacher who name-called me and disrespected me a lot this semester is done 🙌🏻 I passed it! Thank God.
Long story short, I passed Kost & Hälsa (Food & Health). I don’t know about the rest, but I had 50 assignments to send in before January 1st. Due to my mental health, I couldn’t make them earlier, but in one week, I made them all. The focus, the discipline, and the live chats I was on (TikTok), talking with friends, made me continue. I finished them! Woho!
So for this semester, I made a promise to myself to never let this happen again! So pray for me and my mental health.
Two more semesters and I a m d o n e finally! I have also made a decision to take a break from school (I have been studying nonstop for ten years) to focus on myself and to work.
So yeah, that has been my reality for the past… weeks? But here I am.
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› Enormous pressure in school. Questioning my future.
teardrops from heaven.
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as much as this blog will have a lot of photographs I have been taking I also will be sharing about my life and days. Like today my day was not good in school. I did a big exam in math and failed.
Math has always been a subject I always hated. I never got any help in school when I was younger and now iam in a class where I get a lot of help and actually learn math. That’s crazy! Back to the test, I tried hard. I doodled my calculations, I counted etc but yet I failed it. Luckily I can re-do it later. But it made the teach and I talk more about my past of school experiences etc. Let me just say that they were not good. We also spoke about my future, how the teacher will help me etc.
So after our talk, it got me thinking hard of my education. Iam already a nurse assistant but don’t wanna work on hospital etc anymore so I decided to study to become a preschool teacher. But here’s the problem, it’s in an other city and my husband has two jobs.. And we have E. So I must rethink my new carrier move.
I love teaching. I taught my husband swedish (fluently) both talking and writing on 6 months. I have easy to learn languages. I’ve learned sign language etc to communicate with my son when he can’t talk (he is non verbal but actually learning to say some words). And that’s how my thoughts of becoming a preschool teacher started.. I teach the children same as I teach my son. but like I said ..the education are in an other city and requires 5 days a week at school.
so now iam confused and lost. Should I give up this as I gave up my dreams to become a photographer for national geographic magazine.. as I have given up a dream carrier as a translator on arabic and spanish for embassies and governments (no education here in Sweden for that). what will my next move be?
tomorrow it’s time for math again. 12h a week in school.. only math. lovely. but tomorrow I will try attacking algebra and I’m scared.
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› First day of school, painful | how it really went
so my first day of school is done. Woho. Painful but I made it. Right now I’m studying math and for me that’s an massive headache (which I got when i was counting, drawing, calculation etc). So sitting in class with tons of students, loud talk when asking questions of explanation from teacher. Wow made my head go insane. Not even music helped me but I did it. I went there, did some math and went home.
I dislike math a lot but only have two more courses of this level of math and next is big big level of math that I have to do to be able to continue my studying to go from nurse assistant to preschool teacher. Big step.. no massive step actually.
Hopefully the math will go easier for me soon (it became easier for me last semester) because this math is hard. I try to count, try to understand my teacher but honestly, my brain has not returned from its vacation. But lets hope 😂🤞🏻
Anyway, how is your day going? my best friend asked me how school went and im sending her gifs with Ross from F.R.I.E.N.D.S when he say “I’m fine. I don’t know why it can out so loud and squeaky ” etc. No gym for me today. I’m actually gonna take a two days break (or maybe I go to the gym tomorrow. I don’t know) but one thing I do know is that I refuse school on my birthday 😅 a tradition for me since 5th grade.
much love ✨️