π· The Goth Mom Chronicles
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βΊ Confidence Feels Different Now
Trying to reconnect with confidence I used to have.
Even though I smile infront of the camera, I struggle. After a while, I finally did my makeup again.
People were staring at me while I was walking down the street on my way to pick up my son.
Honestly?
I donβt care. Sorta.
Iβm alternative, and when I finally have both the energy and the time to do my makeup, I do it.
Todayβs look was black, brown, and red around the eyes.
Iβm also trying to step out of my comfort zone by wearing black eyeshadow again as a plus size woman.
A few years ago, after losing 40 kg, I used to wear dark makeup all the time and felt amazing and confident.With filters? Sure. But real life feels different sometimes.
Todayβ¦ I donβt feel that confidence the same way anymore.
At least not outside.
Plus size can also be alternative. But today, I didn’t go all out. Just a little. -
βΊ I Blame My ADHD and Its Impulse Decisions
Being bored and having ADHD is honestly a dangerous combination.
And I⦠oooph.
Having ADHD and being bored is honestly not a great combination.
My hair was dark chocolate brown with grey roots showing, and while I was relaxing (kind of) in front of the TV, I suddenly got the massive urge to dye my hair.
So I did.
I couldnβt fight the impulse.
The result?
Brown with red tones.
And honestlyβ¦ itβs kinda pretty.
Normally I have neon red hair, but this time I wanted to try something different. Iβve never had brown and red mixed together before.
Maybe not showing so good but it’s a pretty color.
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βΊ Somewhere warm, soon.
Dreaming about slower days, salty air, and quiet moments away from everyday life.
(Old photo but only one I have of me actually thinking. Lol it was an accidentally snapshot when I was gonna send a snap to a friend. But I had to save it. Lol ) Lately Iβve been daydreaming a lot about traveling.
Warm evenings, slower days, salty air, camera walks, and finally feeling sunlight without immediately wanting to hide from the heat.
I keep imagining tiny moments already.
Late dinners outside.
Music in my headphones while walking somewhere unfamiliar.
Taking photos of random little details nobody else notices.
I think I need this trip more than I realized.
Not for big adventures, honestly.
Just to breathe differently for a little while.
I want to take photos and explore the less touristy sides of places. The hidden gems, quiet alleys, tiny details, real life, and small moments that most people walk past without noticing.
Just like I did in Italy.
I still remember the colorful houses, the sunsets, the sea, and even two nuns I randomly saw while walking around with my camera.
I felt strangely at home there.
Standing near the sea with my camera in my hand.
Calm.
Relaxed.
Mentally rested for the first time in a long while.
Exactly what my mind needs right now.
Quiet.
Calmness.
And just⦠breathing.