-
I got sued by the internship for this….
So I had a meeting today.. With the headmaster or whatever you call it. The boss over the principal and school (preschools as well). I told the headmaster (operation manager, but that sounds odd) exactly what happened, how I have been treated, and how everything has been and is. What I and two witnesses saw/heard/experienced in the meeting, etc.
It felt like a positive meeting and the boss was very shocked and super concerned about the staff etc at the preschool and school.
She would start massive investigation about it all. Try fix so I can continue the education and remove the F’s I got in two subjects due to lies and made-up-stuff they all have said. She said everything sounded so odd and she also explained to me about the report. Yes I got sued at my internship for saying no to a child who abused another child.
I wrote this earlier but I tell again. I got sued by the staff and principal at my internship (preschool) because I said no to a child who smacked another child in the face with fists, and the two staff members who were outside (this happened during recess/playtime outside) had their backs towards the situation. I was 10-15 m (meters) from the situation, so of course I said no out loud. But yeah. Apparently I wasn’t allowed to say no to the child.
So automatically my teacher and the principal failed me in two subjects . Note that one of the subjects lessons didn’t start until last monday (11th of May) and my internship ended 30th of April. Still she has failed me. How?!
So hopefully this will be solved and I can continue to move in the shadows. Let’s see.
-
I’ve made a decision and realized stuff
Last week. The last week of my internship and I have mixed feelings.
This is my fourth week at my internship. It has been good, it has been bad. I have asked a lot of questions, I have learned alot about the “school”, a lot about myself and a lot of decisions.
It has not been all gold and diamonds during these weeks. Stuff has happen that has made me cry. Meetings with my teacher and supervisor (always at every internship so it’s nothing new).
I have eyebrows. I promise. Haha!
Positive about the internship
- The nickname I have gotten from one child; miima and ima (it’s a bit hard for the child to say Emma, so it’s ok)
- The children feel safe around me
- Children are so safe that they fall asleep in my lap (biggest reward ever)
- The laughs between the children and I, all the playful moments, laughter and just.. being silly.
- Got to know the children (on a teacher student level)
Negative about the internship
- I had lumbar after first week at the internship so I couldn’t attend two days that week but struggled myself to the internship the other three days.
- Problems.
- Tears.
- The lifting of the children, in and out of chairs, couch etc.
- Bending down
- Their small children height tables
- Not allowed to have your own fashion style..
What I realized and all the decisions
- Working with children 1-3 years old isn’t for me nor my body.
- I actually don’t want to work at this town’s preschools so I’m gonna apply for work in other towns.
- Do not tell about family situation when it comes to matching times etc (I’ll explain later)
- I will still continue to study to become a preschool teacher, but for first, before becoming a PS teacher, I’ll check around on other work areas that I’ll be allowed to work with when this is over.
Today is the second last day (tomorrow is my last day) and I have honestly mixed feelings. Even though it has been a lot of problems here, it’s the kids I will be missing. I have gotten to know 35 kids and some has become really attached with me (I try really hard to back off from them but they are clinging on me haha!)
Yesterday when I was going home at the end of my “shift” at the internship, sooo many children didn’t want me to go. They hugged me, spoke to me, joked with me and hugged me even more. So this will be the part I will be missing alot. The beautiful connection I have with the children.
Maybe I will work as extra here but I am not sure yet due to what has happened.
A bit of today on next page
-
I need to stop with positivity
Why is life so unfair?
Today I left school crying. Tears falling down my cheeks like Niagara Falls. I’m broken. Heartbroken. When finally something good happens in my life, its always something that will go wrong.
Seven months left. That is all. Seven months and I would be done with my education. Unfortunately it ended today. Why? Because of the internship I was supposed to have in two weeks.
Let me take it from start; I have been in contact with my supervisor ONCE (per email. One answer from her) and I got the schedule for my times at the internship which I had to message back, explaining about E, his autism diagnosis, school situation etc with him. I thought we would be able to work things out.. Like it has been done on all other places I have had internships at.
Then my teacher got an email in class so she came up to me and read it. They will not be able to adjust the schedule and said a lot more. This broke me. The teacher left the class after a short amount of time (well, pretty much instantly after she read the message) and I could feel how close my tears was..
So I packed my stuff and left. I went home. I called Michaela and cried!
Note that the supervisor has NOT messaged me anything about this.
I really wanted this. I really wanted to be able to work with special need children and later on study to become a preschool teacher.
But if I don’t have an internship at a preschool, I will automatically fail and therefore they will kick me out. I can’t continue.
So Sadly, my education ends today unless a freaking miracle happen.
So I think from now on, I need to stop with thinking positive about things, stuff, happenings etc. Because when ever something good happens to me, something will always knock me down and ruin things.
Anyway, rant over. I’m going to bed. Hopefully I can get some sleep. Due to all emotions, etc., today, I fell asleep when I came home, and I know that will mess up my sleep tonight, so let’s hope. Haha!
-
Finally! Bring out the big guns!
Spring is officially here and i couldn’t be more happy!
Hello darlings! I hope you all are doing wonderful!
The winter is officially gone here, where I live. Well, we still have snow, but it’s melting away so fast! TIME TO BRING OUT THE BIG GUNS! (no weapon!) I can finally walk outside in my Crocs! Oh, how much I have been waiting on that! Yes... I use Crocs. Lol!
Moving in the shadows. That is one line that goes on repeat inside my head. That line, or “move in the shadows, babe.” I have seen too much of Charlotte Dobre on YouTube and even listened to her “podcast” on Spotify. Hilarious one! 10/10 recommend if you wanna laugh.
And moving in the shadows is exactly what am doing. What am doing I can not tell yet 🤫
Anyway, last time I posted here, I wrote about the new glasses. I have now been wearing them 24/7 (not really, but from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep), and I can honestly say this will be a long two weeks to get my eyes used to them. Luckily I only have a week left-ish before I need to go back to those I bought the glasses from.
But so far I have noticed I see a little (just a teeny tiny bit) better with glasses on, but only when I see near/close, but I struggle a lot with looking a bit ahead. So hopefully it will get better soon, or else I just have to go back and have them fix new glasses in the glasses which I know will cost me. a lot of money. Sadly.
As you can see, the size of the glasses is massive compared to my sunglasses. It looks so funny but hey, I get alot of stares and looks but I dont care. I have no more energy to care about stuff like that.
✨️ working on my mental health and stepping away from negativity ✨️
I just noticed in my calender that in three weeks I have the four weeks long internship at a daycare (1-3 year old children). This time I will be at an other place due to problems on the last one. I was supposed to be a student, follow the supervisor and watch & learn but I got “thrown in” as a teacher instantly which I didn’t like (no problem at all but I didnt have experience in this working area). I used the motherly instincts that came automatically so I told my teacher what happened so she magically managed (after months!) finally found a new location for me.
Am I nervous? Yes. I don’t know how that location is. Will they accept me? Will they be rude towards me? Etc. Wouldn’t be the first place people would’ve been rude towards me there for this question.
So let’s hope that this time I will have a better experience 🤞🏻🤞🏻
-
What kind of education is this!? I am so confused
Sometimes I wonder what kind of class I’m studying.. Sockpuppets??
We had a theme.. Animals and staff in preschool. Make sockpuppets to have a theater to solve conflicts.. I didn’t want to make an adult so I made a weird looking bat. To my defense, the scissors to cut with was awful. If I had my tools that I had at home, it would be alot prettier. Lol. Now it looks.. I don’t know.. But it looks funny!
Sadly my teacher told me to do a sockpuppet you can use it to “talk”.. No. Those gives me creeps. Lol! Luckily, I can do what I want and no need to do anything else. Lol when it comes to crafting will mean.
Hi hello my beautiful souls! My life has been insanely dumb towards me there for I have been quiet. I actually made a recap post yesterday but didn’t post it due to me writing it on my way to school and I actually got “car sick” lol. Bus sick maybe is a better term. I will post it later though.
BUT HOW ARE YOU!? Suck a long time ago (January 22nd I think)
I apologize for my absence. Long story short (longer in an other post) mental health, new medicine, stopped instantly with my old medicine with out “stepping out” on it and a lot more.
Here I am though! Not mentally stable yet but slowly working towards it! One step at the time!