-
› We Went Into the Woods – And Things Got Weird
I know I didn’t blog yesterday. I am so sorry! It was chaotic at home, but today I will blog.
Hi, hello, my beautiful people! I hope everything to fine with you all!
I have just come home from school (well, kind of; an hour ago), so I’m currently in the bath writing this.
Today in school, the classmates, two teachers, and I have been to the forest. Just because we are studying to be the pre-step preschool teacher, we had to go to the forest today. Just because the teachers go to the forest with children sometimes.
What did we do? We went on a walk and answered questions. Well, you talked with your mate you were paired with about them. Some questions were kind of weird, and I and AK (the classmate) pretty much didn’t know what to answer on some of them. One question was, “Have you been dead and had experience? What do you remember?” Like, how would I know that?
Such a weird question. Oh well, after that walk, the teachers spoke about Buddhism and how they do mandalas, blow them out after prayers, etc. So we had a mission to make our mandalas.Odd, but we did it. I took pictures, but I don’t think people want me to share that, but it’s all good.
After that we had a bit of lunch and talked, and I and S joked with one of our teachers (L). She drank water out of a syrup bottle, and I told S earlier for fun, “She drinks out of a syrup bottle. I bet it’s white syrup,” and I was right! Crazy!
Anyway, the jokes we did with the teacher (she joined in on the jokes) and said that we think it’s something else (vodka), and L laughed and said yes. So we continued and said it was mixed with some water so she wouldn’t get exposed. We all laughed.
So me and S went on with the bottle and L told us some funny stories etc. It was actually a fun moment in the forest (even though I complained a lot! Haha! I dislike being in the forest due to all the bugs etc)
After lunch we had an other activity (we did four activities in total during this class) and that was to paint, either something with forest related or feelings. I tried to make a sunset but that one failed extremely hard. I’m better to paint with pens than watercolors.
Fun part… or maybe not so funny, but S and AK were fine with it. I did some color splatter on my painting, and it accidentally came on AK’s bag and S’s shoes. I apologized so much when we saw it. I was so embarrassed. I even splattered paint on myself, my bag and the bench we sat on. Atleast I participated. Lol!
I had already told my teachers and classmates that I’m a photographer and a blogger, so they had to be prepared that I would take photos. I did. A few. Lol.
I’m not sharing all, just some. Click on the picture to see bigger/full size.
About my fingers (I will explain better in another post): my son has pulled my fingers so much when wanting to show me things or get me to follow him, so I have started to get problems with my fingers. Therefore, the sports tape on them keeps them “straight” and helps with the pain.
The bag in the last picture actually has a text on it, but I removed it due to it not being a kind text. No, I don’t have the text out towards people when I walk with it.
Yes, I have permission to share pictures of my classmates when we had the painting activity. I asked and told them I would cover their faces. They were okay with that except one student. which I respect, so she’s not in any pictures.
-
› You Asked, I’m Here: A New Introduction
I have new followers and new readers – HI, HELLO AND WELCOME! I hope you enjoy my little corner here on the internet.
I thought I should do a new small introduction of myself. Maybe you wanna tell me a little bit about yourself? Would love to know 🤗🩷
I’m excited to share a fresh introduction about myself. I’m someone who enjoys embracing new experiences and learning every day. I find joy in growth and discovery.
This new chapter is all about being authentic, open, and ready to make meaningful connections.
(I dont have other pictures right now so I use these for now)
Me, myself and my life
Hello! My name is Emma and my blog is called Emma Santorini. Santorini is not my real last name but I took it into my name here on the blog due to Santorini, Greece has been a dream location of mine to visit and I just love the name “Santorini”. anyway lets continue…
I am a woman born 1990 (woop sweet 90s!) and I am from and live in Sweden. I am overweight due to a diagnosis I have called PCOS. I have weight almost 200kg but have struggled and fought to lose a lot of weight. My journey is not over yet. You will also be able to follow my weightloss journey here in the blog.
I’m also a mother to a sweet little man (born 2017) who has autism level 3 and is non verbal.
I am nurse assistant but I am currently studying (swedish;) Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning (caretaker for children with specializing npf sorta explanation). Which means I will be able to help/teach/ be assistant to children or adults with special needs in school etc. My goal is to become a preschool teacher and work with special need kids (autism, down syndrome etc).
My intrests is (except my family) is beauty, photography, learning new things, music and laugh.
I dislike; horses (scary for me), clowns, bridges, small spaces and deep oceans (even though i love ocean/the sea)
I like; Pepsi max, photo, travel, metal music, write lyrics, chill, hang out with friends, doing makeup and alot more.
My style, personality and the whole shebang
My style is kinda odd. Normally I have neon red hair with a lot of makeup. My fashion style is a little bit mix of goth and alternative. Meaning, everything i wear is black and has attitude. Lol!
What is the blog about?
My blog is a lifestyle blogger with a mix of photography, mental health, daily life, travel and family.
I will also write about topics I think is important to talk about such as mental health, depression, bullying etc.
I want to help people, connect with everyone no matter if you have a blog or not. Special niches, intrests etc. I love connecting with people.
Photographer
I am a hobby / amateur photographer. My thing in photography is landscape, travel, macro, windows and details. Yes you read right.. windows. I discovered that winter 2024 and I had to look up the law in Sweden when it comes to that > read my post about the terrifying interaction I had and why I looked up the laws < taking pictures of people’s windows.
I also take photos of food. Yes you read that right as well. If I try something new, or hanging out with my friends etc. Always snapping pictures of the food so be prepared for food pictures as well.
I upload a lot of pictures in my blog. Both pictures from my cameras Canon 450D (my companion in crime) and Canon R10 but also with my phone (depends which one i have) thats currently Samsung s23 Ultra.
I edit my pictures on my phone (yes my laptop is too weak to handle photo editing program) and they always look sharp but unfortunately in the blog…a whole different story.
Education (Nurse Assistant)
I studied to become a nurse assistant back in August 2022 to December 2023. January 2024 I started to study my grades up and have been doing that since that time. In August 2025 I’m gonna start study Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning (swedish) and I have mixed feelings.
Nurse assistant education was actually a promise I made with my mom before she passed. It was her dream for to become a N.A. I love helping people and elderly people. Being there when they need help, their extended arm when needed etc. But after been working at the hospital, different senior homes (this was also before I had my education that I worked on S.H) and what I saw plus experience among the workers… it made me quit fast. I couldn’t stand for how they worked and everything.
Complains to the boss and the city halls about how it was didnt help so I quit.
Picture of me when I worked at a senior home.
when i worked at the hospital and lost -40kg on 3 months. How? I walked 250km per day (not in one walk. several walks per day) Worth knowing about me and the blog
I am self-taught on the language english. I know my grammar and some spelling will be off and wrong. I apologize for that now and in advance.
I have ADHD so my posts can sometimes be all over.
I struggle with bad mental health that iam working on to get out. I have been in dark places but I am in much better place now and it gives me motivation to continue.
My blog is raw (I am honest about things and stuff) and will not hide stuff. The blog is like my diary. Where I can write my thoughts feelings- mourn the loss of my parents- personal struggles- positivity to everyone and what happen in my life.
Everything is not always positive and sometimes I will be off from the blog and that will due to the fact that it is a lot going on in my head. But I will try to stay active.
As a small part of a family blogger I will also share posts about my son- what he has done, school, activities, etc
Future plans
I have a lot of future plans, both when it comes to my life but also with the blog.
I will travel and is actually currently planning of going to either Santorini or Mykonos in Greece or Milan in Italy. I haven’t decided yet. I want to “finish” one country at the time but also explore other places.
I want be able to inspire people somehow.
I want to expand my knowledge of things like in photography, languages etc
(ridiculous plan now) I want to be published as a photographer with my picture somewhere. That would be so amazing!
BECOME MYSELF! Yes my absolute future plans im gonna work hard on is to become myself again. Happy, bubbly, laughing Emma. and ofcourse have my neon red hair again.
I guess that summons most of it about me and this introduction.
Remember to follow me and my blog. You can click subscribe at the bottom right (on phone) or you can subscribe with your email adress (I wont be able to see that one so dont worry).
-
› They Arrived! My Head’s Spinning With Thoughts
one step closer to my new career. I’m excited but terrified on the same time.
After 11th August it will come up school posts. My daily life, lifestyle. I hope you all are excited and ok with following my journey to become a preschool teacher with specialized for diagnosis.
They arrived with Early Bird which means they come really fast in the mail. To my surprise, the books came within two days. That’s crazy fast!
I got a notification on my phone that it was delivered and my heart took an extra skip. Now it feels kinda official that I will be one step closer.
I am scared though. Will I be able to manage to understand the academic words? Sure it’s not as hard as University level of my future school but after been scanning /looking through them fast, my brain stopped working.
I will have more courses during this education but these are the first three books I’ll use for the first semester. According to the schedule, there will be two more different classes per week but no books to them? I am so confused about that.
As you all can read, I have mixed feelings about this career choice. I really want this but I am terrified… of failing, of the school, of the classmates, teachers etc. How will it go? So many thoughts, feelings etc that I need to sort out and try find the motivation and the encouragement that I’m getting closer to the job I really want.
-
› New education and truth to be told, It’s really scary
Hello my loves! today has been a hectic day on the blog and real life. It just occurred to me that I start in school in 1O days! What!?
This time I am actually super nervous and scared. Just like when I did my nurse assistant education. This education is at the same school that I hate and where I did the N A E. My former high-school. I have so many bad bad memories from there.
I’m nervous due to new class, new teachers and my size in a school with 3K kids. Yes iam preparing mentally for bullying I just have to get used to it. Hard, yes but I must.
School supplies I need to buy; There is alot! Notebooks, pencils, rubbers, books, etc. Ohmy. Books is ordered for this semester though. But not for the other two but one step at the time.
I have totally forgotten what is needed when studying! Except when I did math, but now iam going back to a big school . Which bag? backpack? hand bag? shoulder bag? Style? dye my hair before that? makeup? Entry access card?
So much to think off! For fun I checked on Shein (no im not ordering there, just browsing to get ideas of what I need to buy) and I found a cute pencil case, bags etc but we all know how Shein is. I used to love them but not now after truth has come out.
What education am I doing this time? This time I am not gonna study so my grades gets better. I’m actually gonna study so I take one step closer to the education preschool teacher. I dont really know how to translate the education from Swedish to english other then I use google translator and that translation sounded so weird.. but (according to Google translator) Childcare training with focus on disabilities. .. sounds so weird. On swedish it’s Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning.
When I’m done with this education I can work in preschool with special need kids. Student assistant to someone who needs extra help etc. I am so excited about that part.
How did I come up with this idea to become this? Well, I love teaching stuff. I hate standing infront of a whole class though but teaching one on one is no problem. Also I get a chance to learn more about my son’s diagnosis, what to do, how to communicate etc. So its a winwin for me.
Why the career change? honestly, the N.A.E was a promise to my mother before she passed. I have always struggled with what I actually wanted to work with in life. Even though I love taking care of elderly people, I have seen so much that has made me change my mind. It has given me some sort of trauma (not the elderly but the staff and no matter how much you tell the boss, nothing happens) so I decided to stop work at the hospital, senior homes etc.
With this, I can actually help and teach children. Be their helping hand on the same time as I get to learn more professionally about diagnoses etc.
Excited, nervous, terrified and happy. Mixed feelings about this but I think its because the education is held at my former high school.
Hopefully these feelings and thoughts will pass as soon as I start in school and gotten to know the people.
-
› Stalker, meetings, and leftover pizza
Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing good! I’m currently in bed for the night, but I wanted to pop in here and say hello!
Today has been pretty hectic due to meetings at hospital, monthly grocery shopping within a time limit which was very stressful, repack food before putting in freeze box, study etc. it has been crazy today so now I’m finally in bed.
Today’s quick dinner while study; left over pizza. Yesh not healthy but it was something over from last night when M and son ate pizza (I always take chicken salad). *snapchat & filter*
Every class we get homework todo til next class and with my history of math etc, I struggle really hard.
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
Confession time; I am dead scared of going in school now and alone in town. Why? Because I have a massive stalker who goes to same school as me.
Back story; I’ve met this man three times. Once at a busstop, once in school and now the third time in town when I was in town with my bestfriend. He snook up behind me and said “Hi Emma!” and I always answer when people talk to me so I said Hi back. After that, it went down hill. E even tried to help me get away from this man and after a while which felt like years he left so we could walk away. I was crying, very uncomfortable, scared etc. This man has said he was COMING home to me, tried to kiss me, hug me, he touched me etc. More happened but this whole situation trigger me even when thinking of it (I’m shaking rn).
So my school situation right now is that my teacher know (I texted him the same night it happened, he called and we spoke), the boss over the principal knows and has spoken with all teachers so they all are keeping eyes on me. Which feels very wrong to be honest but I really appreciate it. Yet I am dead scared of going to school I even have classmates who ends the classes early to walk with me to the busstop. that’s crazy!
Long story short; I have school five days a week and I really don’t wanna go but still go.
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
I hope you all have an amazing day and remember this; you are fantastic and amazing. Never let anyone else tell you something else. Always.. always be true to yourself.