funny memories – The EVERFLOW

Looking back at an old blog from 2017, old selfies, forgotten memories, family, grief, growing older and the person I used to be..

Having a best friend who stalks my old blog — okay, not stalks, but checks it from time to time — is actually hilarious.

I had completely forgotten about it. Not the blog itself, but the name of it! Until she sent me the link.

Oh my god.

I wrote on that blog last time on December 1, 2017. That is almost 9 years ago.

Going through the posts, seeing the pictures and reading a bit was a roller-coaster of emotions. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I fought not to shed tears.

Reading about when I was learning Arabic, dealing with my mom’s cancer, my dad’s death and so much more… it really brought back a lot.

One thing I found absolutely hilarious was all the old photos of myself. WAOW! Holy… I don’t even know — cheese? 👀

Oh well. I was NOT ready for it.

I had completely forgotten about my “signature” selfie style. The makeup. The poses. Oh lord, how embarrassing!

Mind you, that blog had over 150 subscribers/followers that I called “ghosts” because I was obsessed with Halloween back then and I’m still obsessed with Halloween now. 😂

So at least 150 people saw those photos. I eventually closed down that blog because there was a lot going on in my personal life. I had no energy. Nothing to write about that felt worth writing about.

Not that EverFlow is much better…Haha!

These are a few of the pictures I found of myself on that blog and I am laughing so hard at myself.

Like… wow. How?!

My best friend said I looked older back then and I’m like: “Excuse me?” She said I should take it as a compliment that I look “younger” now.

She’s weird… I know. 😂

Anyway, have fun.

Enjoy these 9 horrible photos of me from when I was 26–27 years old. Yup. i was almost 30 and walked around looking like that. I’m turning 36 now and barely wear makeup anymore.

What a journey and roller-coaster of thoughts, feelings etc 😂🖤

I wrote a post earlier today but forgot to publish it. Typical me 😅 I cant publish it now, though, because it was a good morning post.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for me! Oh my. I am actually nervous, and honestly, I’m still terrified.

I am debating with myself if I should dye my hair or just leave it. I have grey hair, and that is showing (I’m not ashamed of it), but maybe I should do it to feel fresh, or should I wait and let my hair keep resting (it’s still breaking off so, so bad, even after I cut the hair off) and later go back to my neon red hair? It’s actually a color condition I use when I get that color. I don’t need to bleach my hair, which is amazing!

The struggle is real for this hair dye addict. I dyed my hair 1 to 3 times a week before and when I was a scene queen / emo queen, I used alot of hairspray and hair straightener daily. I honestly did one hairspray bottle per week! Yes you read it right! Hairspray, tweeting the hair, straightener, hairspray, tweezing etc . That was my mornings etc before school (plus makeup ofcourse).

So hopefully, you all can understand the urge I have and how I fight against it to not fall for it. I think I will just leave my hair as it is now. Hopefully I can manage to control myself lol!

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So tonight I’m just going to take a calm evening. Do some home spa after E has fallen asleep. Hair mask or something. I don’t know yet. I’m honestly too tired, but a new chapter starts tomorrow for me.

I’ll post a blog post later tonight about weight loss, etc. My journey starts tomorrow again. Now I’m going all in. wish me luck! 🤞🏻