I regret the past and that time.

I wrote a post earlier today but forgot to publish it. Typical me 😅 I cant publish it now, though, because it was a good morning post.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for me! Oh my. I am actually nervous, and honestly, I’m still terrified.

I am debating with myself if I should dye my hair or just leave it. I have grey hair, and that is showing (I’m not ashamed of it), but maybe I should do it to feel fresh, or should I wait and let my hair keep resting (it’s still breaking off so, so bad, even after I cut the hair off) and later go back to my neon red hair? It’s actually a color condition I use when I get that color. I don’t need to bleach my hair, which is amazing!

The struggle is real for this hair dye addict. I dyed my hair 1 to 3 times a week before and when I was a scene queen / emo queen, I used alot of hairspray and hair straightener daily. I honestly did one hairspray bottle per week! Yes you read it right! Hairspray, tweeting the hair, straightener, hairspray, tweezing  etc . That was my mornings etc before school (plus makeup ofcourse).

So hopefully, you all can understand the urge I have and how I fight against it to not fall for it. I think I will just leave my hair as it is now. Hopefully I can manage to control myself lol!

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So tonight I’m just going to take a calm evening. Do some home spa after E has fallen asleep. Hair mask or something. I don’t know yet. I’m honestly too tired, but a new chapter starts tomorrow for me.

I’ll post a blog post later tonight about weight loss, etc. My journey starts tomorrow again. Now I’m going all in. wish me luck! 🤞🏻