• › Hello Fall! Life Lately, Crutches, School & A Little Bit of Chaos

    Fall is here, the leaves are dancing, the crutches are still following me around, and life is… well, life.

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    Hello my beautiful pumpkins! 🎃🎃

    Now it is officially fall! (I know I say it again, but honestly, fall is the best season according to me.)

    I love the cold air, the color shift on the leaves, seeing them swirl, “dance” down and give their last performance!


    I have been quiet for a bit, I know. The reason is that I really don’t have much to tell at the moment due to me being on crutches. Well, I’m supposed to use them, but as you all know me, I’m stubborn as hell. 😂 I used them in the beginning, but now I’m fighting through the pain because I don’t want to need them anymore.
    I still bring them with me if I go out — to the city, for example — in case the pain gets unbearable and I need a bit of “pain relief.”


    So, what’s up with you? Any updates?

    For me? Nothing really.

    • Voted in the election — meaning, I did my duty as a Swedish citizen. 🇸🇪
    • Slowly stopping one medication to introduce another one over time.
    • Not amputated my foot — miracle.
    • Studied.
    • Had a fever last week, so no school for me.
    • Had a birthday dinner date with my Queen Alien — my best friend. Yeah, I know, she’s my cousin, but that is so weird to write/say, so I will not mention that again. 🥲



  • › Back to School on Crutches | A Little EverFlow Life Update

    Hello my spicy and beautiful pumpkins! 🖤 How are you all? “Long time” no seen.

    I am truly exhausted — both mentally and physically!

    Jumping on crutches is a pure workout and I am NOT built for workouts. Give me cookies and milk and I will be a happy person. Lol.

    Anyway
    The reason why I have been absent is because I have been mentally preparing and struggling with school — yes, I know. Shit happens and I hate it there, but I do it for my son. Not only for him to have after-school care, but also to show him that it’s okay if you don’t graduate high school. You can always get an education later in life.

    Monday: First day. Not prepared. Read here; [ link to Monday’s post ]


    Tuesday: Went to school for like 1.5 hours. I couldn’t stay for a whole day. I was almost falling asleep in class, couldn’t focus and had a migraine on top of that. I hadn’t slept that night because of massive stomach pain that kept waking me up every 30 minutes. It was awful, and it kept going nonstop the whole Wednesday as well.


    Friday [today]: Half day — woho! Love that!
    Today we had a test — yes, a test already… first week — and I passed it. Woop!


    We also had a “roleplay” where the teacher divided us students into two groups — four in each. We had to do a roleplay where two of the students were preschool kids and two had to be the teachers. One mean teacher and one “good” teacher.

    Guess which one I was?

    ……….. *pause for guessing* ………..

    If you guessed the mean one, you are correct!

    So me “yelling” and being mean to one of the children — I went all out. I was acting like this horrible, mean teacher.

    Wow! Almost so good that I deserve an Oscar!
    That’s how good I was. 😂

    After school,
    I came home, supposed to do homework, but honestly — all my energy went into going to school and jumping around on crutches. My hands and arms are actually hurting from it, to be honest. It is brutal! I don’t understand how people can do it day in and day out to be honest! You guys are strong!

    At least I’m going, which is a miracle for me.
    Sure, I get a lot of stares, but I’m rocking those screaming, insanely blue crutches.

    They are so ugly! It’s ridiculous.

    Tomorrow I will study. I had to do paperwork for the insurance company, Lufthansa and their bullshit and yeah…

    Exhausted Miima for sure!

    So here is a quick post, quick check-in.

    Hi! Here I am! Exhausted but still alive — barely — and ready to post again. Getting back to my routines again!

    Thank you so, so much for checking in on EverFlow and for being patient with me. I really appreciate you! SO MUCH! 🖤


    Much love to you, my pumpkins! 🖤



  • › Finding My Old Blog After 9 Years | Memories, Old Photos & Who I Used to Be

    Looking back at an old blog from 2017, old selfies, forgotten memories, family, grief, growing older and the person I used to be..

    Having a best friend who stalks my old blog — okay, not stalks, but checks it from time to time — is actually hilarious.

    I had completely forgotten about it. Not the blog itself, but the name of it! Until she sent me the link.

    Oh my god.

    I wrote on that blog last time on December 1, 2017. That is almost 9 years ago.

    Going through the posts, seeing the pictures and reading a bit was a roller-coaster of emotions. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I fought not to shed tears.

    Reading about when I was learning Arabic, dealing with my mom’s cancer, my dad’s death and so much more… it really brought back a lot.

    One thing I found absolutely hilarious was all the old photos of myself. WAOW! Holy… I don’t even know — cheese? 👀

    Oh well. I was NOT ready for it.

    I had completely forgotten about my “signature” selfie style. The makeup. The poses. Oh lord, how embarrassing!

    Mind you, that blog had over 150 subscribers/followers that I called “ghosts” because I was obsessed with Halloween back then and I’m still obsessed with Halloween now. 😂

    So at least 150 people saw those photos. I eventually closed down that blog because there was a lot going on in my personal life. I had no energy. Nothing to write about that felt worth writing about.

    Not that EverFlow is much better…Haha!



    These are a few of the pictures I found of myself on that blog and I am laughing so hard at myself.

    Like… wow. How?!

    My best friend said I looked older back then and I’m like: “Excuse me?” She said I should take it as a compliment that I look “younger” now.

    She’s weird… I know. 😂

    Anyway, have fun.

    Enjoy these 9 horrible photos of me from when I was 26–27 years old. Yup. i was almost 30 and walked around looking like that. I’m turning 36 now and barely wear makeup anymore.

    What a journey and roller-coaster of thoughts, feelings etc 😂🖤



  • › Life Lately | A Little EverFlow Update From Home

    A little look at everyday life, social training, motherhood, getting around on crutches, and dealing with an injured foot.

    Hello my spicy pumpkins! 🖤

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    How are you all doing today? I hope you all have an amazing day / evening!

    I thought I should post a mixed blog post with a bit of what I’ve been doing lately when I haven’t been blogging. Mostly photos though. A picture say more than a thousand words – isn’t that the saying?



    E and I have been social training a couple of times — at the same time as we’ve been grocery shopping, but these times have been in town. Not at home. So it has been a lot of bus rides and walking. Shopping, spending time together, laughs, happiness but of course tears and sadness. Nothing special has happened with the sadness, but you can’t always have bright, colorful and happy days.

    Alone on the bus. Take which ever the seat you want.

    Telling him to slow down and go next to me is impossible.



    Trying to keep up with the same speed as E when walking — that must look interesting and funny. Screaming blue crutches, a heffalump (me) dressed in black and probably with a backpack as usual. Even the thought of that makes me laugh! Like… what!?

    Do you know the boy who copies and making fun of his mom when walking? Little boy!

    Thief. Always steal my extra legs. Haha!



    I thought I’d share some photos from the time. I’m currently in bed, resting my foot, neck and stomach. Stomach pain after today’s visit to the hospital.

    Update on my foot: 8/10 pain right now.

    Ice Cream Date

    Random pics from the time.

    Broken adapter.. I accidentally dropped it on the floor. Now I know how an adapter for phonecharger looks like inside.

    I need these as tattoos.


  • › My Happy Songs for Today | The Music That Puts Me in a Good Mood

    Which songs always put you in a good mood?

    When i was waiting on the bus to go to the town for a meeting, I reflected on one thing.. Some days, music makes me happy and honestly, i have MANY songs but today these songs makes me happy (I’m switching music as well and not playing same songs all the time)

    Here are a few of the happy songs I’m currently listening to

    🎵 AronChupa & Little Sis Nora – Llama in My Living Room
    🎵 PSY – Gangnam Style
    🎵 Lvbel C5 & AKDO – Coook Pardon (I have no idea what they’re singing about, but it’s incredibly uplifting!)
    🎵 Lvbel C5 – HAVHAVHAV (Still no clue what the lyrics mean… but the music is so good.)
    🎵 Russell Brand ft. Catherine Zeta-Jones – We Built This City / We’re Not Gonna Take It (from one of my favourite movies, Rock of Ages!)
    🎵 HammerFall – Hearts on Fire
    🎵 Lordi – HardRock Hallelujah

    These are just a few songs that make me happy, especially today.

    My mental health is actually doing okay today, so I’m trying to keep that feeling going with some music. I rarely listen to music anymore, but today felt like the right day to press play.

    I may be goth, but my music taste is all over the place. 💀 The only genres I really can’t listen to are classical and jazz… they just make me anxious for some reason and makes me stressed.

    What songs instantly make you happy? I’d love some recommendations!