• › Ready for an Adventure

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    A bus ride, a crowded grocery store and one very determined little adventurer.

    Non-verbal autistic child shopping in a grocery store during a family day out.



    I just sat down after today’s adventure with E. As you know, he has autism – level 3 – and is non-verbal. Due to him not having the after-school care thingy for the rest of the summer, I have to come up with a million ideas of what to do with him – like I normally do, but living here, it’s not that fun. At least he enjoys it.

    Today’s adventure; bus, grocery store, bus and home.

    He has been nagging about the trip we went on to another city – bus, train, shopping, train, bus – and I have always felt really bad for saying “not today, maybe tomorrow” etc.

    Today he repeatedly said “bus, shopping – bus” and started to get ready > pants, shirt, underwear (he took care of his hygiene himself), brushed his teeth and hair, put on his shoes and jacket.

    “Ready!” all of a sudden I heard while I was out on the balcony.

    I laughed when I saw him ready for an adventure, so I took him on a bus ride (he is obsessed with buses) and the joy when we finally sat down on the bus. Oh my.

    Non-verbal autistic child enjoying a bus ride and looking out the window.



    When I saw the parking lot at the grocery store, my heart started to beat super fast and I felt that I didn’t want to do this. The parking lot was MAXED with cars! It was insane!

    But I had promised E, so I ignored my feelings and we got off. I told E to hold my hand and whatever he did – do not let my hand go.

    Luckily, if a child gets lost in Sweden, people usually help them find their parent or notify store staff. So while I was worried about the crowds and the noise, I wasn’t worried about E getting abducted or anything like that.

    While inside, oh my God. I wanted to turn around instantly. My mind was racing:

    “How will this go? How will E act?” (He gets tantrums when there are a lot of people and noises.) “Where are the hearing protections?” etc.

    Toys; as a reward (before actually entering the food sections of the store), I got him a second train. I knew that would help him stay a little calmer because he could focus on that one.

    Food sections; thank God I have taught E to hold the cart in front of me and me behind him. So it’s me – E – cart.

    Because oh my Lord how insane people are when holidays are happening in Sweden. This time; Midsummer.

    We literally had to do a maze between people to grab our stuff and when we were outside after the shopping, I let out the biggest sigh of relief. We were done.

    Mother and autistic son holding hands during a bus ride home.
    We did it!



    Remind me to never go to grocery stores during holidays or a few days before. It was worse than Christmas time and people in Sweden are insane when it comes to Christmas and Easter.



  • › A not-so-quiet and calm morning

    We thought it would be a slow morning, but we were very wrong.

    Tornado boy


    We woke up to E moving around in bed like a tornado. He usually comes to sleep with us during the night to feel safe, so this is nothing unusual.

    I was already wide awake at that point. Mentally I wanted more sleep, but my body had clearly decided otherwise.

    Then suddenly M said,
    “He’s going to throw up.”

    I barely had time to react before I instinctively put my hands under his mouth — and yes, correctly.

    I quickly lifted him out of bed while using my hands as a temporary bucket. M looked completely panicked for a second, probably because it’s very rare that E throws up, so I just yelled:
    “GET A BUCKET!”

    Thank God for my unusually big hands. Honestly, I don’t even want to think about where everything would have ended up otherwise.

    We’re currently on the sofa watching YouTube and trying to have a calmer rest of the day.

    My poor little man. I hope that E and the day gets better ❤️



  • › A small moment that happened

    A quiet moment I know I’ll remember.

    This AI picture of me and my parents. I don’t have a picture of us together, so I am so happy that AI could make this one for me. Of pictures of my parents and me. Combined three photos into one.

    A small moment today that I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

    My non-verbal son looked at an AI-generated photo of me and my parents and said “grandma” and “grandpa” in Swedish for the first time.

    It was the very first time he said it, and I’m sitting here in tears and is still emotional when I think about this moment.