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βΊ Why my passion for photography died
it’s been a long long day! Productive but super long. today I actually bought a camera so I can take the photography game to the next level. Well.. maybe better level than the current one.
It is an old model of the camera but it is just one for now til I have relearned the skills, settings etc again and later on can invest in a good camera. So for now it’s a good camera. Almost brand new. Barely used. Objective included but luckily I have some of my old ones left. Now I just need an external adapter SD card reader so I can empty my memory cards (I have like 10 or something). Kinda curious what I have on them π
Unfortunately the passion for photography died for me on same time as my parents passed away but slowly I have getting the passion back [there for massive amount of photos on my phone and also some uploaded here and on instagram] which is good because it was a way for me to escape the reality for a while when I had low moments.
So I’m excited to re-do everything I learned, read, tried etc. Luckily I will still have my phone to take photos with as well but gonna try after my skills is back to use camera more. Maybe the quality of photos in the blog gets better? Hm.
My beloved boy. After school. So fascinated of the sign “Din fart” = Your speed. It shows green or red numbers for the speed you are driving. He always stops there and say the letters plus wait a bit for a car to pass by.
Alright today it is.. Monday 21st of October.Β how insane isn’t that? the October month is soon over. Iam not ready! No no! Let’s keep having October, fall and the beauty for a while. No snow. I dont like snow. lol.
Today i have been doing MASSIVE cleaning at home. I have tossed away so much stuff I can’t even believe it. But most fun part; there is more to declutter and throw away. Mouhaha!
Clean, study, dinner, went and bought the camera, played some games in between the cleaning (pauses) and now iam officially in bed.
Laundry, meetings and school is on the agenda for tomorrow. Hopefully everything will be fine.
So i guess this is goodnight and I apologize that I haven’t blogged today. Kinda crazy day and I’ve helped my sister on game there for I’ve been “playing games”.
Goodnight β‘
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βΊ Fallish vibes
Good afternoon pumpkins! I hope you all are doing good today.Β Busy busy day for me. School, grocery shopping, clean, laundry, make dinner, study etc. Wooh long long day.
But it is finally the W E E K E N D ! Friday and finally no more school for this week. Lol! Except the study at home.
Yesterday I was supposed to go on a “girl night”Β at the town and shopping malls. I went home after school but my husband told me to go in there and check it out. So I did.
10minutes after arriving there, I went home. It was boring. on 10 minutes I went through both malls (they are tiny) and checked out. Went a fast run at H&M and an electronic store. Nothing fun. Just because they had open longer at night (instead of 6pm, they were open to 9pm) it was chaotic.
But I took three photos . Cute and very “fallish”. Maybe not the best pictures but it’s something:)
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βΊ Fall shows it’s true beauty
been up since the crack of dawn because of massive pain in my arm. I forgot to show you pictures from the photo walk i had with EG. I can’t show everyone in one post because it makes the post look cluttered but here is one picture from my town.
βFall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.β β Lauren DeStefano
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βΊ One of the biggest fairs in Sweden
Today I’d the last day of one of the biggest carnivals in Sweden. Did I attend it? Yes, 30 minutes. Did I buy anything? Yes.. a garlic sausage.
When E wasn’t home, my husband and I went to the carnival the day before it opened just to walk around the amusement park ~ which is actually a part of my childhood. I grew up with carousels etc. So yay!
it was so weird walking around there when it was closed and literally no other person were there.
bumper cars, whirlwind, trampolines, fun houses etc where there. Fun! Unfortunately we could not go on any rides (duh. haha!) and to be honest, when husband and I went on the carnival for 30 minutes, I joked and said I wanted to go on one but naa I didn’t go because on my neckproblem (whiplash) and it was like no fun attractions.
the painting on some of the lottery booths, funhouses etc were crazy ugly. God. On one lottery booth, the faces didn’t match the heads etc but when I saw this, I laughed.
Scooby Doo on the side and Ghostbusters on front. The combo was hilarious.
When walking around it (the 30 minutes) it brought back so many memories. My childhood, my record on whirlwind carousel etc. But one thing both my husband and I noticed were and said to each other “where are all the sellers?”. Usually the road is closed off and packed with sellers every little inch but this year it was so many gone, so few of sellers that it made the fair boring. I normally love fairs like these because it reminds me of my childhood, the adventures as a young kid who has unlimited free rides on the carousels.
Why didn’t I go this year with E? Well, last year we went and it became so much for E. With his autism, sound sensitivity and tok much impression of everything, I didn’t wanna put him through that again. So he’s father has a shopping list from me to buy. Hopefully he will remember it (he is going with his person he works with, sunday)
do you have any fun childhood memory?
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βΊ Enormous pressure in school. Questioning my future.
teardrops from heaven.
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as much as this blog will have a lot of photographs I have been taking I also will be sharing about my life and days. Like today my day was not good in school. I did a big exam in math and failed.
Math has always been a subject I always hated. I never got any help in school when I was younger and now iam in a class where I get a lot of help and actually learn math. That’s crazy! Back to the test, I tried hard. I doodled my calculations, I counted etc but yet I failed it. Luckily I can re-do it later. But it made the teach and I talk more about my past of school experiences etc. Let me just say that they were not good. We also spoke about my future, how the teacher will help me etc.
So after our talk, it got me thinking hard of my education. Iam already a nurse assistant but don’t wanna work on hospital etc anymore so I decided to study to become a preschool teacher. But here’s the problem, it’s in an other city and my husband has two jobs.. And we have E. So I must rethink my new carrier move.Β
I love teaching. I taught my husband swedish (fluently) both talking and writing on 6 months. I have easy to learn languages. I’ve learned sign language etc to communicate with my son when he can’t talk (he is non verbal but actually learning to say some words). And that’s how my thoughts of becoming a preschool teacher started.. I teach the children same as I teach my son. but like I said ..the education are in an other city and requires 5 days a week at school.
so now iam confused and lost. Should I give up this as I gave up my dreams to become a photographer for national geographic magazine.. as I have given up a dream carrier as a translator on arabic and spanish for embassies and governments (no education here in Sweden for that). what will my next move be?
tomorrow it’s time for math again. 12h a week in school.. only math. lovely. but tomorrow I will try attacking algebra and I’m scared.