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› I’m terrified and I Finally Made My Decision
Remember yesterday when I said I would rethink the education?
Yeah. I made my decision today. I’m done.
Today I finally got the papers from my internship that I requested back in May.
And honestly?
I am in complete shock.
The lies.
The accusations.
The way they describe me.
It was terrifying to read. I completely broke down after reading it. Why? Why all this towards me?
I genuinely don’t understand. This isn’t me! Who is this person they describe? It ain’t me!
WHY would I apply for this education if I was actually the kind of person they are trying to make me look like?
Why would I choose to work with children if I was threatening?
I love children. I love teaching them things. I love being playful and childish around them.
So reading all of this honestly made me feel sick.
Later today, I saw one of my old teachers from before this education while I was in town.
And I asked him straight out:
“Have I ever threatened you or anyone?”
“Have I ever mentally abused anyone?”
“Have I ever made anyone scared or uncomfortable?”
He literally started laughing because he thought the questions sounded absurd.
Then he asked me where all of this even came from.
So I explained everything.
The accusations.
The papers.
Everything.
And honestly?
I broke down in front of him.
He kept repeating:
“Emma, you are literally the last person I would describe like that.”
He said I’m kind. That we always have a great bond and that I am nothing like they try to make me look like.
Before I left for the bus he looked at me and said:
“Fuck them. Ignore them.”
But it’s not that easy. This is serious! I’m genuinely scared after reading those papers.
And after today, after reading everything, I realized I can’t go back there again. I’m done.
I can’t.
My head is complete chaos right now.
Shock.
Anger.
Confusion.
Fear.
I know this post is messy, but honestly?
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› I Thought I Had Made My Decision
I thought I had already made my decision, but now I’m not so sure anymore.
Not the flattered picture of me but this is literally how I feel and look like right now. Chaos in head and a decision that needs to be made.
Yesterday was my last day at school.
And honestly?
It feels wrong.
I really wanted this education.
I already told my teacher that I probably won’t return next semester, even though I only have five months left.
Because of the false accusations and everything that happened during my internship, I most likely won’t pass anyway.
What hurts even more is knowing I probably won’t get another chance to finish it later. The school apparently won’t continue offering this education due to too few applicants.
So this might really be the end.
On my way to the bus after school, a classmate suddenly stopped me.
“Emma, I really don’t think you should drop out.”
We normally don’t even talk much, so hearing that caught me completely off guard.
I explained why I felt like giving up, but she just kept saying:
.“F*ck them. Show them you’re serious about this education and that you won’t take any bullshit.”
It turns out she’s struggling with problems there too.
And honestly?
Now I’m confused all over again.
Because part of me still wants this so badly.
I want to move forward.
I want to continue studying.
I want to become a preschool teacher someday.
But at the same time, this entire situation has mentally drained me.
And because of everything that happened, I still won’t officially qualify to work in preschool after this education anyway.
So now my head feels like complete chaos.
One moment I want to quit.
The next moment I start rethinking everything.
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› Happy Mother’s Day 🌸
Sometimes the best celebrations are the simplest ones that become the most memorable.
🌸 Happy Mother’s Day 🌸
Today is Mother’s Day here in Sweden, and it has been such a cozy day.
Cuddles, playtime with E, laughter, celebrations, and lots of cozy moments.
I got flowers, and later we decided to buy pizza and cake.
Yes, we were lazy today.
Instead of cooking, we treated ourselves to pizza, but hey… it’s Mother’s Day. I think that’s a perfectly valid excuse.
At least that’s what I’m telling myself. Haha!
If you’re celebrating Mother’s Day today, I hope you’ve had a wonderful day filled with love, laughter, and special moments.
Happy Mother’s Day to you ❤️Glimpses of my cozy mother’s day
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› Trip to Bulgaria 2026: Packing List, Travel Preparation & Personal Travel Diary 🇧🇬
Remember this post? Somewhere warm soon
M SURPRISED ME! With a trip to Bulgaria! I actually found about this recently!
A personal travel diary, packing list, and preparation checklist before a summer trip to Bulgaria ~ CHAOS!
Tickets booked ✔️
Hotel sorted. ✔️
Airport transfers arranged. ✔️
Planning a trip to Bulgaria in 2026? Read my personal travel diary including packing list, travel preparation, what I’ve bought, travel apps I use, and final checklist before departure.
Travel to Bulgaria 2026 – Two weeks of Vacation Begins
Time to travel abroad, explore new places, go on small adventures, and create new memories in Bulgaria.
And I can already feel it — that shift before a trip when everyday life no longer feels completely normal. Everything slowly turns into preparation. Time feels slower, almost stretched, as departure gets closer.
This is my personal travel preparation for Bulgaria 2026, including my packing list, travel checklist, and everything I’ve bought before my trip.Travel mindset before going to Bulgaria
There is always a specific mindset before traveling. For me, it’s a mix of excitement and constant planning.
Last year, I traveled to Italy. Unfortunately, it didn’t meet my expectations and felt disappointing on a personal level. Venice, in particular, was far from what I had imagined. Instead of romantic canals and glowing lights, it felt crowded and underwhelming. Because of that experience, I don’t plan to return to Venice again.
This is why my upcoming trip to Bulgaria feels very different — more exciting, more intentional, and more positive.Travel preparation checklist: apps, documents & planning
Before traveling to Bulgaria, I’ve been preparing everything in advance.
I’ve downloaded several essential travel apps, including:
* Taxi apps ~ Yellow & TaxiMe
* Translation apps for communication ~ simple Google translator. I’m still looking into other
* Public transport timetable apps ~ Moovit
Taxi&Transportation apps ~ These are the apps I have downloaded so far. Maybe more will be added. I’m still googling what I need and what to avoid etc.
I also constantly check my travel documents, passport, and ID to make sure everything is ready.
This pre-travel planning phase is always the most intense part for me.Pre-travel chaos: packing anxiety & preparation routine
Before every trip, my environment changes.
My room slowly becomes a reflection of my mindset — not organised, not calm, but a quiet kind of chaos. Packing, unpacking, and re-checking everything multiple times.
Even when I follow my packing list, I still double-check everything.
My mind often asks:
~ Did I pack this?
~ Where did I put that?
~ What if I forgot something?
Even when I know everything is already packed.
This is just part of my personal travel routine before any trip, whether it’s a weekend or a long vacation.
What I’ve already bought for my Bulgaria trip
Here is my current Bulgaria travel packing list of items I’ve already purchased:
~ Small camera bag organiser (for lighter travel, no backpack needed)
~ Set of six coded travel locks (no keys, for security while traveling)
~ Two new pairs of sunglasses
~ Screen protector for my phone
~ New walking shoes for sightseeing and travel
The bag will be (hopefully) good for my camera and few lenses for me to have in my shoulderbag when I’m outside. 
The new shoes.
These are part of my essential travel gear for Bulgaria 2026. So far.
What I still need to buy before traveling to Bulgaria
There are still a few final items left on my Bulgaria packing checklist:
– Camera gear & photography accessories –
~ Lens covers
~ Lens cap holder
~ KnightX CPL filters (multiple sizes)
~ Memory card holder (compact version)– Travel essentials for Bulgaria –
~ Two shirts
~ A pair of shorts
~ Suitcase
~ Cabin bag or carry-on travel bag
These final items complete my travel packing list for Bulgaria. I think. I hope.Travel countdown: Bulgaria trip July 12th 2026 ✈️
The countdown has officially begun!
Right now, my thoughts are everywhere:
what I still need to buy, what I still need to pack, how I will get there, currency exchange, and transportation details.
And most importantly — making sure I don’t forget the essentials:
passport, national ID, wallet, and charger.
Passport and ID are the most important travel documents. Everything else can be replaced.
Final thoughts: preparing for a summer trip to Bulgaria
This Bulgaria travel diary is part of my preparation process. Slowly, everything is becoming real — from planning to packing to departure.
Soon, it will all be zipped, organised, and ready to go.I hope.
All my posts about preparation, travel, photography etc will be in one category of its own. Just like my Norway trip 2024, Italy Trip 2025.
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› A Few Glimpses of My Saturday {May 30}
A regular Saturday.
Laundry duty.
I finally managed to book a slot in the laundry room and grabbed it immediately. It’s honestly crazy how much laundry piles up when you have a child who changes clothes constantly. Maybe not every five minutes, but sometimes it feels like it.
Not the glamorous laundry room where I live but it works. The clothes is getting clean 🙌🏼
Today’s little glimpses:
● Laundry
● Folding laundry
● Sending in my last assignments despite everything going on
● Grocery shopping
● Uncomfortable children but understanding parents
● Scratch mark on my ankle
Had an explosion of Pepsi Max in my bag so I had to wash that one as well.
One thing that stayed with me today happened while we were out shopping.
A little background: because of past experiences with kindergarten, my son has spent much of his life separated from other children (kindergarten). Ever since he was little, he has been incredibly drawn to them. He loves children and often assumes everyone is a friend.
Today, he ran up and hugged two children.
As a parent to a child with special needs, those moments are always difficult. You never know how people will react.They were uncomfortable, which I understand. A child coming up like a train at full speed towards them. I had no chance to stop him due to him being so strong, and people here are very alert to reporting anything to the CPS. Sadly.
Luckily, both parents were understanding when I explained the situation.
One of the parents actually smiled and said the following:“Aww, you got a hug. That is so sweet”
And honestly? That made me happy.
Not everyone is understanding, and situations like these can be stressful.
Having a child with autism comes with challenges that many people never see. A lot of the time it feels like you’re constantly advocating, explaining, protecting, and helping your child navigate a world that isn’t always patient.
But today, for a small moment, people chose kindness.
And I appreciated that more than they probably realized.
Scratch mark by a straw in metal. Painful