Well.. how do I feel?

How are you feeling right now?

well, if I should be honest.. not so good. Today has been chaotic and stressful (as usual). Back behind the schooldesk for the second this for this semester and I honestly feel very bad.

I’m doing math in school. Math is supposed to be simple people say but honestly,  for me it’s harder than me learning a new language.

When I was in middle school etc I never got help by teachers with math and english so I taught myself english (there for I apologize in advance for bad spelling and grammar) and I tried to do math on this school (course 1) but I broke down, crying and hiding. I felt so stupid and like a failure. My then teacher spoke to an other teacher and now iam re-doing the math from start which is fantastic. But being back behind the schooldesk after summer break is brutal. I have forgotten how to calculate, must ask teacher for everything.

I wanted to break down today but I didn’t.

so the question from wordpress today How are you feeling right now? Honestly, bad. Today’s memories are going on repeat in my head and I can’t stop think of everything. How much of a failure iam etc. But hey, it’s just a feeling and thoughts.

Ok enough with bad energy in here.