Thank God I could focus
I tried to stay calm but I didn’t. I got verbally attacked and threatened by “professionals”.
Hey guys! I don’t know how to write this post because my mind is going insane after a meeting!
I can’t believe what happened and thankfully I had my bestfriend Elin with me (I hate meetings and have bad experience when it comes to have meeting with the people I has meeting with today.
Morning; Got up, packed E’s bags, made breakfast (toast due to the stove is kaput ) and got him ready for the bus to school. Afterwards I actually went to sleep and took a nap (I think im getting sick and iam super tired a lot now so I need to book an appointment to check my iron and blood again), approximately 2 hours. Got up, took a shower, put makeup on (I know! it’s shocking! 😂) and made myself ready.
30 minutes before the meeting my head was on “bitch/angry mode” due to the fact I was having a meeting with the principal of the school – which, you guessed it, is the one who has made the experiences of meetings with her horrible. Elin and I were chatting, talking and looking on reels that I had saved on my phone and deleted them. I needed more space on my phone – yes I recorded the meeting . for 39 minutes
The meeting didn’t go well. They were rude as h*ll towards Elin and towards me, which made me automatically go into defense mode (which can make me mad sometimes), and I stood up for myself and for Elin. They told Elin to be quiet (even though she tried to explain my words better for the principal and some other woman who was there—I don’t know how to translate her title—so they would understand what I meant), which made me mad. even though both of them know about my bad memory and that I suck at explaining stuff.
The threats made me boil over. I’m not going to write what they said, etc., but let me just say that I asked several times, “How do you want it? Kick me out and let me continue the studies.” It wouldn’t be the first time the principal had kicked me out so thats why I asked this (and no, I havent done anything wrong that time nor this time but she really dislikes me and I.. honestly hate her). They didn’t give me clarification if I was allowed to continue or if I got kicked out.
During this meeting, I went in to my “escape mode” so I wouldn’t explode with anger. I focused on one object while talking and kept calm.
When I write this, I want to develop it more; when I get really, really mad, I do this. As a young girl, I had massive anger issues, which caused me to black out and not remember what I had said or done while angry, and to break that cycle, I managed to find this way to handle it so I can remain more calm and involved in conversations, etc. No, this never happens around my son. I have never gotten that angry at him. So don’t worry, I would never touch my son or anything. The adults who are rude to me and push me into that position will meet that side (even though it’s very rare that it happens). I just want to clear things up before continuing to talk about the meeting.
While they went on and on after all the stuff I had told them and explained to them—heck, I even drew on papers to explain to them so they would understand—they mixed in verbal attacks on me. Yes, I have it on record, but sadly, the memory of my phone got full after 39 minutes, but luckily, Elin was there, and she heard everything.
I went into the meeting irritated and annoyed and left it pissed off and tried to wrap what just happened around my head.
The outfit I wore today. A typical mirror picture of myself when I’m at this school and not the school I attend now.
After the meeting
Elin and I went to our restaurant (we are there often), ordered food, and just talked about the meeting. We are both in shock at what just happened and everything they had said. It’s insane! We just had to talk about it. Vent, be mad, try fix stuff etc.
We sat there for an hour-ish and left the restaurant to go to J, but she wasn’t home, of course, but we met up with her. Hung out and later went to her place and hung out even more there. Serious talks, us telling about the meeting, shared anger about it, but later we changed the subject, and the laughing party was on. We laughed, talked, and had fun together. Elin and J bonded really fast, which made me so happy!
That’s pretty much the recap of my afternoon today. Got verbally attacked, threatened, had lunch and hung out with friends.
What made my day good, though?
● The food (6/10 but 10/10 when low sugar and hungry) ● Laughs ● My music ● The kitty cat Diesel (J’s cat) ● Pepsi Max ● Makeup ● Australia (those who knows, u know )
What made my day bad?
● The meeting & the attacks (or insults. Depends on how you would take it as) ● The food (just some) ● Allergic reaction after removing makeup (no this haven’t been an issue before. No I haven’t written about this) ● Cooking at the neighbors
How was your day?
Thank you for reading 📚