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› Tears of joy!
What brings a tear of joy to your eye?
What really brings me to tears of joy?
I’m gonna talk first about me being a mother to a child with autism 3 and is non-verbal. Nothing brings me more joy and happiness than watching my son develop and grow. Learning how to talk (not like us though) on his own way with words that are almost correct, sign languages etc. To hear all fantastic progress he do in school, with friends and everyone. Also ofcourse watching my son having fun, laughing, cuddling with me or his father. Getting the family hugs (us three hug together) . Everything with my son to be honest. When he has his tantrums and frustration (not a tear of joy part) and I can help him to calm down. I learn on the same time on what’s working for him and not. The learning part of being able to comfort E the best way gives me joy (maybe not tears of joy).
Laugh til I can’t breathe. That is one favorite thing I have. Whether if it’s joking with E, or he do something that makes me laugh or having goofy time with my husband.
hanging out with friends and we laugh a lot. that’s joy for me.
but shortly; the tears of joy for me is when it comes to my son. The development . The learning. The love. Everything.
What is you tears of joy?
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› Well.. how do I feel?
How are you feeling right now?
well, if I should be honest.. not so good. Today has been chaotic and stressful (as usual). Back behind the schooldesk for the second this for this semester and I honestly feel very bad.
I’m doing math in school. Math is supposed to be simple people say but honestly, for me it’s harder than me learning a new language.
When I was in middle school etc I never got help by teachers with math and english so I taught myself english (there for I apologize in advance for bad spelling and grammar) and I tried to do math on this school (course 1) but I broke down, crying and hiding. I felt so stupid and like a failure. My then teacher spoke to an other teacher and now iam re-doing the math from start which is fantastic. But being back behind the schooldesk after summer break is brutal. I have forgotten how to calculate, must ask teacher for everything.
I wanted to break down today but I didn’t.
so the question from wordpress today How are you feeling right now? Honestly, bad. Today’s memories are going on repeat in my head and I can’t stop think of everything. How much of a failure iam etc. But hey, it’s just a feeling and thoughts.
Ok enough with bad energy in here.