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› Pump up the jam with albatrauz
Sometimes i don’t feel motivated yet I try but can not focus. Today is one of those days.
Goodmorning my beautiful pumpkins. I hope you all are doing good and is having a beautiful day.
I’m currently in school, and we still have class. Now we only work on our assignments, but I cannot focus. I have sent in two assignments, though, but when it came to the third, I lost concentration and focus. I started to write it and have answered some, but now I’m just sitting.
It’s still morning/forenoon (?) here in Sweden, and I can honestly say, today is one of those days where I just want to be home and rest.
Special education 9am – 12pm ●● School Social Work 1pm – 4pm
Hopefully my energy and concentration will come back. The energy when I entered the classroom was crazy; I was listening to AronChupa—I’m an Albatrauz, which is a very catchy song with a lot of energy. So some of the classmates laughed and some danced along when they heard which song it was—maybe I should start bringing speakers? so we all can dance and get more energy? Nah, I would probably get kicked out of school if I did that. lol!
What have I learned so far? Well honestly, nothing because what the assignments are about, I already know so nothing new.
Do you have any crazy moments that have happened to you? I have many moments.
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› I did something I wasn’t allowed to do. Oops!
I did something I wasn’t allowed to do, but I just had to. I sneaked to take a photo of my shoes after some children had fun and sneaked to add the magnetic letters on my shoes.
What they thought was that I didn’t feel anything, but what they didn’t know was that I felt and knew they were doing it but played along.
I know I broke one rule, but I took this picture way, way, waaaay away from any children, so I was still thinking of where to take it. Also made sure no names were shown or pictures of the children.
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Hello, my beautiful pumpkins! Yes, I can officially call you all my pumpkins because now it’s HALLOWEEN SEASON! Woho!
Today I had my third day at my internship (3 of 5), and no more for this week. The start of the day was chaotic! Oh my god! It started with the alarms on my phone not going off, and I woke up at 06:54am… my bus left at 07:10am, so you all can imagine the stress! But I managed to get myself out to the bus stop. Here comes another thing that made the day more chaotic: the bus was super late! Oh my god. So I messaged the preschool I’m having the internship at, explaining, and it was okay for them, but I apologized!
I do not want to come more late than I already do (with agreement with my supervisor) due to my son and his taxi to school.
I basically ran to the preschool, so I tried to get in closer “time” to when I normally am there. I managed... by five minutes after my normal time. Oh my. It was insane!
My supervisor was home today (reason no need to be added here), so I was with two other teachers, and it was good. It was really good. to see how they worked and their routines!
Today, on my third day, I have been doing bracelets and necklaces made of plastic beads that children in preschool use and make jewelry from. Super cute. ● I have been pretty much all day sitting at a table with some children and made bead jewelry and bead plates. ● One child and I wanted to do a Halloween pumpkin, but they didn’t have a printed-out picture, so I used my phone to find one for inspiration, etc., until one of my supervisors today was available. I asked for their tab and explained. ● I have also been reading books for the kids (nerve-wracking!), and they liked it! Woho! ● We also went to another part of the preschool (they have three departments, or whatever you want to call it) with some children so they/we could play with big blue blocks, and oh boy, how much fun we had!
This was pretty much my day (more happened but can not write about that) and I am happy. I was able to help children (without my supervisors) with getting dressed, to help with food etc.
So now I only have two more days here at the preschool, and I’m honestly really sad about that. The children are wonderful, and the staff is amazing! I hope they all see how much I like it here and how much I try.
Next week, I’m back to school but also have two more days of the internship.
Monday; School. Tuesday; School. Wednesday; Internship. Thursday; School. Friday; Internship
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› What Happens When the Person Who’s Supposed to Teach You Breaks Your Spirit
I was hurt. I was angry. I left the class but came back. I sat in the back behind everyone instead of up front.
Yesterday I didn’t blog due to me trying to calm down the whole day. It was insane how mad I was.
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Yes, I have my legs on a table in the back. I have informed my teacher that it’s a way for me to calm down in situations that occur and my mind can’t handle, so I have permission to do it. Even if people think it’s rude, it helps me. Weird, I know, but that’s how I discovered what works when anger takes over and I want to participate in stuff but need distractions.
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It was the first class of the day. Food and health (yeah, it really is a class in that with this education), and we had a discussion in the whole class about obesity, diseases, what’s true and false, etc.
During the discussion in class, she mentioned that you only become overweight if you eat badly and don’t exercise, which I objected to and corrected her and said it’s also genetic and that you can gain weight from different kinds of medicines. Nope, I was wrong! And then she said the same about diabetes, which I was correcting her on again, and said, “It’s also genetic,“ which again, I was wrong about.
Then she started to say a lot of (well, she had already said a lot of bs) untrustworthy information about diets, etc. She also said that, and I quote, “Doctors, nurses, and dieticians are wrong with everything they say about food and health.” Like, excuse me!?
So again, I corrected her, and another classmate corrected her as well, which made the teacher call us LIARS! And that’s when I got mad.
Not only did she literally hold speeches with lies and think the entire class was stupid and not have any form of knowledge about food and health, but she called me (and J) liars!
Note that both J and I pretty much grew up in hospitals, have been in contact with many doctors, nurses, and dieticians personally and together with my mom when she had throat cancer… and I am also a nurse assistant, while this teacher has no healthcare education but works out a lot.
Honestly, how can a teacher who is supposed to encourage a student to learn and participate just call a student a liar? What happens when a teacher tears a student down? Why do some teachers do that?
Me, myself and I are angry and hurt. I honestly don’t wanna participate in her class anymore but sadly I must
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Second class for the day.. health pedagogy (is that the word?)
Finally, no more of that BS-talking teacher. It was time to have one of my new favorite teachers, M! I rarely say it but I actually enjoy having class when she holds the classes.
We spoke about what’s healthy for me and what’s healthy for preschool children. It was super interesting, and we had to think hard on this one. Unfortunately the teacher was quick on erasing everything off the whiteboard, but luckily I wrote it down for the children.
Activities outside, fruit moments, singing, dancing, etc., were up on the board, but also feeling valued, being seen & heard, etc. It was stuff that was obvious but also other stuff you normally don’t think of, they happen naturally.
It was a good class and I stayed the entire class/lesson.
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TODAY WE HAD A CONVERSATION with M about the class where the teacher called us a liar. Now we gonna have a meeting, the two of us (J and I) and the teachers M and L.
I told M that I’m not accepting that L called me a liar and that I will continue to go to her class but not engage in discussions, etc. Just to avoid another class like this and cause problems in the class between me and the classmates.
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Now this rant is over for this time. Sorry for being so negative in this post, but I really need to clear my head.
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› Shopping with a person with ADHD is .. interesting.
Sent two assignments in. Went shopping. Studied more. Made dinner. E is sleeping, and I am in bed.
Hello my beautiful sunflowers 🌻 Today have been a kinda hard day for me.
I have studied pretty much all day today. Sent two assignments in plus two that was not an assignment yet. How? From the books. The teacher writes the questions that are in the books as assignments, so I did that. “Wow, it goes fast,” was a comment from my teacher. Funny! So I explained to her why I do so much now. In case my son gets the flu/gets sick, I won’t fall behind so much. Which is true, though.
I wrote yesterday about the microwave and how it flashed, so it died. It broke my routine for the night, but luckily for me! WE WENT SHOPPING! Woho! We bought a new microwave today so my nightly popcorn can happen again! Happy Emma!
Why nightly popcorn? I don’t know, honestly. It started this winter that I ate popcorn every night and now can’t stop. Lol! So last night was a bit hard for me 😅 but today I got my popcorn! 🍿 🍿
While buying the microwave, I decided to buy a new pencil case. Yes, I bought one. Even though I have one but I cant find it now. I have a gut feeling at I have accidentally thrown it away. Not sure though but oh well. I need a pencil case for the studies so, I bought one. $9 😮💨 So expensive! My other pencil case is bought for $3. That’s triple the amount. Insane!
I also “ran” around in the store, looking for stuff and on stuff. I was all over. Even I would have complained if I saw how I was walking around, etc. Lol! No, no one complained but I got a lot of looks, lol.
Afterwards we went to another store where I bought two new frying pans, a bottle of shower cream, and 😏 an 8-pack of Pepsi Max. Hehe. The addiction is real, people. Horrible, but it’s there. I have found a way, though, to minimize my drinking during the days (no, I’m not talking about alcohol. Only Pepsi Max), and that is I don’t drink out of glasses where I can see how much I have in it. I use my water bottle metallic thermos and drink out of. Works so well! Since I did that, I have not been drinking as I used to! So lets continue and see if I hopefully can minimize it 60% (or more).
So now my bag is packed with laptop, books, papers, pencil case, extra books that I’m selling tomorrow and tomorrow morning I will pack down chargers for my phone, laptop and headphones.
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Today’s dinner is simple yet so yummy. Even E said repeatedly, “Yum!” “So good!” “Good!” “Yummy.” That made me so happy! He is very selective when it comes to food but thanks to the fact that we have been challenging him a lot when it comes to food, he can eat almost anything. Except soup,which I understand him.
Maybe it doesn’t look so yummy in the picture, but it was delicious for the tummy. Minced meat with red onions & cooking cream. Gluten free pasta for me (I’m gonna try gluten free to see if I’m allergic to gluten) and some vegetables 🥰
Yes, it looks A LOT on the plate but I could only eat at most half. 🥴 Too much, but honestly, it’s not a lot on the plate. Oh well.
So im off to bed now. The alarm goes off in five hours 🥴 and honestly, I’m hungry!
Thursday schedule in school;
9am – 12am Food and health
12am/pm to 1pm Lunch
1pm – 4pm Health pedagogy (is that even the correct word? According to Google translate it is)
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Goodnight my sunflowers 🌻
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› I’m terrified, scared, and so lost!
Good afternoon, my beautiful and amazing people! I hope you all have a wonderful Monday, and good luck in school, at work, or in whatever activity you have this week!
While in school, I get a message on Messenger from M, who tells me that on the news they say that there has been a cyberattack towards many hotels in Italy. Yeah, that sounds… lovely! And due to the fact that I am in school, I haven’t seen it, so she sent a screen recording. NOW I’M SCARED! I called the police and asked what I could do! Unfortunately, they couldn’t do anything or give me suggestions. 🥴So I called to Italy to the hotel I stayed at and asked them. Of course they said they are 100% protected, but we all know no one is 100% safe. So I have to keep an eye on my bank, etc. So pray for me!
I honestly don’t know what to do! To calm myself down. I’m scared and terrified!
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Today we had to discuss a children book. We were supposed to have one with us but I forgot mine so thank god there is a library at the school. I went there and borrowed one.
We had to think as a teacher who read for a preschool child. It was honestly hard! Not the reading part but to ask the questions to keep the children involved in discussions. Superhard! We also had to pick out words that we thought the children would ask for etc. Oh god.
But hey, I participated and I did the assignments 🙌🏻 so now when I come home, I will study. I must read and do assignments til next time. 50 pages and long essay 🥴 oh wow.
How are you all!? Please don’t be afraid of talking to me. I don’t bite. I promise 🤭
It’s kind of interesting and repetitive for me in this class because I have done it earlier, and I use this all the time at home, but let’s go.