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› Stalker, meetings, and leftover pizza
Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing good! I’m currently in bed for the night, but I wanted to pop in here and say hello!
Today has been pretty hectic due to meetings at hospital, monthly grocery shopping within a time limit which was very stressful, repack food before putting in freeze box, study etc. it has been crazy today so now I’m finally in bed.
Today’s quick dinner while study; left over pizza. Yesh not healthy but it was something over from last night when M and son ate pizza (I always take chicken salad). *snapchat & filter*
Every class we get homework todo til next class and with my history of math etc, I struggle really hard.
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Confession time; I am dead scared of going in school now and alone in town. Why? Because I have a massive stalker who goes to same school as me.
Back story; I’ve met this man three times. Once at a busstop, once in school and now the third time in town when I was in town with my bestfriend. He snook up behind me and said “Hi Emma!” and I always answer when people talk to me so I said Hi back. After that, it went down hill. E even tried to help me get away from this man and after a while which felt like years he left so we could walk away. I was crying, very uncomfortable, scared etc. This man has said he was COMING home to me, tried to kiss me, hug me, he touched me etc. More happened but this whole situation trigger me even when thinking of it (I’m shaking rn).
So my school situation right now is that my teacher know (I texted him the same night it happened, he called and we spoke), the boss over the principal knows and has spoken with all teachers so they all are keeping eyes on me. Which feels very wrong to be honest but I really appreciate it. Yet I am dead scared of going to school I even have classmates who ends the classes early to walk with me to the busstop. that’s crazy!
Long story short; I have school five days a week and I really don’t wanna go but still go.
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I hope you all have an amazing day and remember this; you are fantastic and amazing. Never let anyone else tell you something else. Always.. always be true to yourself.
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› First day of 2025 and this is how I hope my year goes
Happy New Year.all you beautiful souls! I wish you all a year of good health, love, happiness and positive vibes.
I have already posted a vision board for my 2025 but since I made that one I have really been thinking of how I hope and wish my 2025 goes go.
This year I will start take care of myself better ~ both mentally, physically and spiritually. I feel that 2024 has really been bad for me personally so this year I will work hard to take care of myself.
I will start with my weightloss journey again. You all know I was maniac going to the gym last summer and this year I’ll go to the gym more ~ atleast 2 times a week. Between that I will go on walks (photowalks as well)
Try get out of my comfort zone, try new things, change my appearance (hair etc) ~ just to try something new.
Travel to new places and explore new locations is something I really hope will happen. A mini vacation even if it is just a weekend or 24h cruise.
I will continue to study, maybe start a new education this fall if the school have it. Some step closer to my preschool teacher education
Just a few things I have been thinking of. It will probably be added more on the list but that is OK. Im just gonna try working with all these.
Do you have any goals and plans for this year?
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› Only a few days and I am missing it?
Hello everyone! Goodmorning, good evening, good afternoon or goodnight to everyone!
How are you? I’m currently in bed (soon 11pm) and I am ready to sleep! Today has been kinda stressful. Paying bills, rush to school, calculations, grocery shopping, home and fix dinner, get my son from school, give him a shower, get him to fall asleep but unfortunately 30 minutes after he fell asleep he woke up so I had to try again and here iam right now. In bed, catching my breath after today!
Wooh been so much today! Anyway! Hopefully tomorrow is more calm. No school for me tomorrow so hopefully my body let me go to gym and out for photowalk! I haven’t been to the gym for a while due to busy schedules and now I’m ready to get back to it! Let’s gooooo!!
Also I haven’t been out on photowalk since Friday. Finally my body is better (a lot!) after the fall but I’m still in pain. Today I woke up with chestpain and have had it all day. Only on left side though but do not worry because it is only the muscles that is cramping or what to call it.
such a lovely picture of me. The rest of the week is all about school, meetings, continue to throw away stuff, demolishing furnitures etc. Can’t wait! And this weekend, hopefully husband doesn’t work one day so we can go to the recycling center and throw away the things.
What is new with you guys? You all good? I see your comments and likes but WP doesn’t let me answer them! I am so sorry! I’m working on it!
I have also seen that I have new followers! Thank you so so much!!! I hope you enjoy my little corner and please, tell me what you would like to ready / see here (this goes for everyone 😊)
So i guess im off to bed. My brain/head is not tired yet so I assume I’m gonna do some “coloring” on a app called Happy Colors (not sponsored). Such a good app to help me calm down every day.
Good night!
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› Are they really allowed to do this?
New week. New possibilities. New steps forward.
This weekend havent been si good to me. Removing more toxicness and negativity out of my life has really taken a toll on my mental health but hey, it might be worth it in the end? I don’t know.
Monday, November 4th, 2024. School. New classmates. Laughed at and massive feeling of disappointment.
Today started good in school but ended up me faking becoming sick so I could leave. First time I did this on this school. Why? A staff who helps students made fun of me and what I said. I got so mad I almost was about to explode but managed myself to stay calm and blame my migraine (I had migraine but is blamed that it became worse). I felt so disgusted, so disappointed, upset and really mad. I left the school so fast so I could cool off a bit away outside.
this happened infront of the two new classmates that started today!
We are grown people and they did this? What?! I can not believe it. and tomorrow it is school again.. hopefully i won’t see this person because iam not up for a confrontation to be honest.. not right now.
Are they staff who works with students (not a teacher) allowed to degrade a student like this? I think it calls degrade. I can be wrong, if so I apologize but I hope you get what I mean.
●●● Anyway, little rant about school today..
Tomorrow it’s Tuesday which means, school at the afternoon. Will probably bring my cameras with me so I can start learn the settings, tips and tricks again. Go for a walk and just be alone to breathe.
● This weekend havent been so good to me. Personally and mentally. Personally I can not talk about here but let me just say, that I have been hurt before by close people but this is in top 3 of the things the person has ever said to me. And that took a massive toll on my mental health. I cried and was hysterical because I couldn’t believe my eyes (the person wrote this so I read, not heard it) and wow I have been a mess but i take it as a sign ~ if that’s how the person feel, they are not meant to be in mine nor my son’s life . it’s that simple.
● My sister and her daughter had to go to an other city by helicopter last night. I can not write details but let me just say that iam terrified and scared. Worried and I don’t know all the emotions. My baby niece A has severe epilepsy and it has become worse. She’s 4 years old!
● I have made a Facebook group (yesterday) if you would like to join to see my artworks. My photographies. I’m gonna expand my equipment with time and hopefully be able to take better pictures 🥰 can’t wait!
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› Why my passion for photography died
it’s been a long long day! Productive but super long. today I actually bought a camera so I can take the photography game to the next level. Well.. maybe better level than the current one.
It is an old model of the camera but it is just one for now til I have relearned the skills, settings etc again and later on can invest in a good camera. So for now it’s a good camera. Almost brand new. Barely used. Objective included but luckily I have some of my old ones left. Now I just need an external adapter SD card reader so I can empty my memory cards (I have like 10 or something). Kinda curious what I have on them 😅
Unfortunately the passion for photography died for me on same time as my parents passed away but slowly I have getting the passion back [there for massive amount of photos on my phone and also some uploaded here and on instagram] which is good because it was a way for me to escape the reality for a while when I had low moments.
So I’m excited to re-do everything I learned, read, tried etc. Luckily I will still have my phone to take photos with as well but gonna try after my skills is back to use camera more. Maybe the quality of photos in the blog gets better? Hm.
My beloved boy. After school. So fascinated of the sign “Din fart” = Your speed. It shows green or red numbers for the speed you are driving. He always stops there and say the letters plus wait a bit for a car to pass by.
Alright today it is.. Monday 21st of October. how insane isn’t that? the October month is soon over. Iam not ready! No no! Let’s keep having October, fall and the beauty for a while. No snow. I dont like snow. lol.
Today i have been doing MASSIVE cleaning at home. I have tossed away so much stuff I can’t even believe it. But most fun part; there is more to declutter and throw away. Mouhaha!
Clean, study, dinner, went and bought the camera, played some games in between the cleaning (pauses) and now iam officially in bed.
Laundry, meetings and school is on the agenda for tomorrow. Hopefully everything will be fine.
So i guess this is goodnight and I apologize that I haven’t blogged today. Kinda crazy day and I’ve helped my sister on game there for I’ve been “playing games”.
Goodnight ♡