• › Safer, But Still Looking Over My Shoulder

    08/07/2026


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    Remember the two post i wrote about being scared? About me been keeping a secret from you guys?

    You can read them here;

    PART 1 — The Secret I’ve Been Carrying
    PART 2 — Some Things Stay Private for a Reason

    This will be the PART 3

    This generated picture of me (my picture but the rest is generated) is showing how I feel right now —  safe, relieved, protected and calm.





    I got my new phone number the other day. I feel a little bit more safe. I spoke with the phone company and asked for ultimate private number — due to all the reasons (I have linked them above).

    Not only for my safety but also for my son’s safety. I can’t go into too many details because I don’t know if this home — EverFlow — is being watched or read because of the situation, so I constantly have to think a couple of steps ahead. 

    I still have to look over my shoulder to stay alert and I may be safer now than before, I still can’t completely relax until I know that my son and I are 100% safe.

    I wonder when that will happen..

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  • › 32 Hours Awake: Sleep Deprivation, Parenting & Pure Survival Mode

    24/06/2026


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    32+ hours awake, one overenergized child, zero brain cells, and caffeine as a personality trait. Welcome to survival mode. 😄🖤💀

    Guess what? I still haven’t gotten any sleep.

    It’s currently 5 PM, and I can honestly say: I A M D E A D.
    Not literally, but you get what I mean.

    My son is still all over the place, full of energy, and I’m honestly jealous. If I had even one percent of his energy, I’d be happy.

    Headache ✅
    Sound sensitive ✅
    Light sensitive ✅

    I was hoping I’d at least get a nap during the day, but with my luck… I doubt it.

    I need to keep E awake for the rest of the day, otherwise I’ll probably have another night like this, and my body and mental health honestly can’t handle that.

    So here we go 😵‍💫 A few more hours to survive.

    I’m praying he sleeps tonight because I have a super important meeting tomorrow that I absolutely need to attend.

    I’ve officially been awake for 32 hours and 30 minutes… and I definitely feel it.

    How’s your day?

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